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                                                * The HeartThread Journal *



                                                         - The Journal of

                                                                Marriage,

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                                                         Family & Society -


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                                                         Vol. 2, Nos. 3-4







                                                        4th Quarter, 1997





















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   * The HeartThread Journal *
   - The Journal of Marriage, Parenting, Family & Society                 -
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     Vol. 2, Nos. 2-3                                   4th Quarter, 1997

       "To promote and encourage the 'thread' of unselfish heart and love
        that invisibly connects husbands and wives, parents and children,
                            brothers and sisters -- and thus, the world."
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           From the Editor
           ...............

                This issue is a bit larger than normal, because
           we've combined our 3rd and 4th Quarter issues into one
           large Holiday issue. Truthfully, I was so busy this fall
           that I just couldn't get the HTJ out any earlier. The HTJ
           continues to be our labor of love, though, so you can
           look forward to more issues in 1998.

                I'm proud to say that this issue was almost entirely
           put together by my Queen, Co-Editor, and wife, Kim. She
           has found some very tasty and interesting tidbits for
           your Christmas reading pleasure. Compare, if you will,
           the beautiful heart expressed by Anne Bradstreet, in
           1678, in her poem "To My Dear and Loving Husband", with
           the dried up and withered advice proposed by Mrs. Ruth
           Smythers in 1894, in "Instructions for the Young Bride"
           (which we've included to demonstrate what we should NOT
           do in our marriages.)

                We've included a piece that was circulating around
           the Net, "Who You Are Makes a A Difference", by an
           unknown author (unknown at least to us.) It caught my
           attention because of the high rate of teen suicide today.
           We can never tell our children too often how much we love
           them and cherish them.

                And... for all of you who have been totally
           convinced that hard rock rots your children's brains,
           we've now got the proof. Check out the article by
           Lorraine Eaton about mice and rock music, and then run
           and check your children's CD rack.

                Finally, Kim and I wish all of you a VERY wonderful
           Holiday season, and the best of great, good fortune in
           the new year. In between issues of the HTJ, hop on by our
           HeartThread Resource Page website, at futurerealm.com and
           leave a comment, if you like, in the discussion forum.
           God Bless, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy
           Kwanzaa, Happy Hunting and Happy New Year!

                                               Peter F. Brown
                                               Editor & Publisher

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                               TABLE OF CONTENTS



           * From the Editor, Peter F. Brown ......................1

           * To My Dear and Loving Husband,
             by Anne Bradstreet ...................................5

           * Parenting in a Changing World,
             by Nora Spurgin ......................................5

           * Organizing Feelings,
             by Susan S. Campbell ................................12

           * Mutton Bustin',
             by Kiesa Kay ........................................13

           * The Lion Sleeps Tonight,
             by Betty St. John ...................................14

           * Mozart or Rock? For these Mice it was a No-brainer,
             by Lorraine Eaton ...................................15

           * Instructions for the Young Bride,
             by Mrs. Ruth Smythers ...............................17

           * Okay, God,
             by Jo Smith .........................................20

           * Who You Are Makes a A Difference,
             Author Unknown ......................................21

           * The Movie Mom's Guide to Movies
             and Videos for Families, by Nell Minow ..............23
             (Review of "Flubber" and "Fairy Tale: A True Story")

           * HeartQuestions / Questions & Reflections
             about Marriage, Parenting, Family & Society
             "Origin of the Wedding March;
             Finding the Heart to Love Step-Children;
             Winning a Daughter's Approval of a New Boyfriend"
             by Peter F. Brown ...................................25

           * Princess Diana and Ponette,
             by Kim Korman Brown .................................28

           * The HeartThread Resource Guide:
             Resources for Couples, Parents & Families ...........31


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                         To My Dear and Loving Husband
                        ...............................

                                                  by Anne Bradstreet
                                                         (1612-1672)

                If ever two were one, then surely we.
                If ever man were lov'd by wife, then thee;
                If ever wife was happy in a man,
                Compare with me ye women if you can.
                I prize thy love more than whole Mines of gold,
                Or all the riches that East doth hold.
                My love is such that Rivers cannot quench,
                Nor ought but love from thee, give recompense.
                Thy love is such I can no way repay,
                The heavens reward thee manifold I pray.
                Then while we live, in love lets so persever,
                That when we live no more, we may live ever.

            ........................................................
                              Published in 1678 in "The Tenth Muse".
                Anne Bradstreet was born in England in 1612, married
             Simon Bradstreet at the age of 16, and two years later,
               they, with her parents, came to the Massachusetts Bay
             colony with the John Winthrop party. Her father and her
              husband were later both Governors. Her poetry was com-
           posed under many handicaps -- she was the mother of eight
              children, and she wrote in a time when,(in her words),
            women's hands were better fitted to a needle than a pen.
                  [This poem expresses my feelings for Peter. - kkb]


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                         Parenting in a Changing World
                        ...............................

                                                  by Nora M. Spurgin

                We often look back to the "good old days" as the
           model for a traditional family lifestyle, and remember
           with nostalgia stories from our own childhood. Visions of
           mothers at home baking apple pie, grandparents visiting
           from nearby, uncles and aunts and cousins, and rural
           settings where children could feel free and safe, float
           across our minds.

                For many of us, looking back to the values of the
           traditional family in those years has little meaning or
           connection to our present two career, urban family. In
           this article, I want to take a creative look at the needs
           of the often smaller family in our modern, highly
           technological, career oriented world.

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                No matter what the environment, or what our time
           period, the needs of children are the same. They have
           needs for love, security, nurturing, training,
           relationship and a sense of belonging. Certainly the two
           parent family with the availability of an extended family
           is still ideal, but not always possible. Therefore we
           must create a model of parenting that fits our present
           circumstances.

           Pride in Parenthood
           *******************

                First, I believe we need to reestablish the nobility
           of parenting -- motherhood and fatherhood. Before mothers
           worked outside the home, it was the mother who became the
           glue to fill in the gaps and tie the family into a whole
           unit. For example, if Junior was ill, Mom was at home to
           care for him; if Dad couldn't find his important papers,
           Mom searched the house and took them to the office. She
           ran the errands, was the taxi service, supplied the
           household, and was there when a parent was needed. This
           role, although often sacrificial, had its own rewards in
           experiencing the pride and joys of motherhood.

                In our two career families, there oftentimes is no
           such adhesive, although we cannot deny the need for it.
           Parenting is a noble art. It takes thought, planning,
           time and the right attitude to be a good parent in
           today's world. The effort made will realize no monetary
           returns, but the rewards of happy children and families
           are more than we often want to recognize. After all, what
           do we do with the money we earn? Some of it goes to buy
           the pleasure which comes free with a happy family. Let's
           look creatively at some of the problems that parents face
           and some suggestions for solving them.

           Lack of Time
           ************

                Working parents have an eight-hour-plus chunk of
           time already accounted for, cutting deeply into parenting
           opportunities. Much as we might like to extend it, we
           have only twenty four hours in a day. This requires
           efficiency not only in the workplace, but also in the
           home.

                I believe that every family will do well to put time
           and thought into organizing the family chores so that
           parents and children can work and play together. Busy
           parents have less time to play or relax, creating a
           harried, frantic home atmosphere. First of all, more time
           can be freed up to play together when the whole family
           shares the work load. This works best if children are
           included from a very young age, learning how to care for
           a home, cook, etc. as they work side by side with their

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           parents. Working together can be joyful; our attitudes
           toward it may need to be changed.

                Secondly, children need to be busy, or entertained.
           How many of us sigh with frustration while we're trying
           to get the kitchen floor mopped with a four year old
           tugging at us and begging to be taken to the park? How
           about including the little fellow in the mopping job?
           Give him a wet sponge and let him work on the spots.
           He'll challenge them as if they were armies to be
           conquered single-handedly by his little self. The same is
           true of the older child - there is a need for
           constructive activity. Even a small job outside the home
           may take the pressure off parents to fill the
           "constructively occupied" need.

           Some Suggestions from Personal Experience
           *****************************************

                When my four children were young, I often kept them
           occupied with jobs which made them feel close to me.
           Cleaning day found them with their own little plastic
           buckets and sponges and a bit of soapy water. The job: go
           around the house and wipe off any spots you see -
           anywhere. This kept them occupied while I, too, was
           cleaning. Contests are fun. My grown children still laugh
           about the time I made a "strong man contest" for my eight
           year old son and his friends who were looking for
           something to do. I gave each a plastic bag and sent them
           outside to pull weeds in the yard with a prize for the
           "strongest man," the one who filled the bag first. They
           were busily and joyfully looking for the largest weeds in
           order to pull up first when suddenly one of them said,
           "This is no contest - Mrs. Spurgin is getting us to pull
           the weeds!" So ended the weed pulling, but we all still
           laugh about it!

                We also had a period of time when all the children
           had a list of "jump starts." I figured they had a lot of
           pent-up energy to express when they arrived home from
           school. It is good to capture it before they settle into
           the "couch potato" mode in front of the TV. Every morning
           I made a list of five minute "jump start jobs" and posted
           them on the refrigerator. Upon returning from school,
           each child immediately did one job and checked it off.
           This took place before I returned home from work. The
           jobs included things such as:

                - empty all the trash cans in the house
                - tear up a head of lettuce in a bowl for salad
                - put away a load of laundry
                - gather all the dirty clothes and put them in the laundry
                - vacuum the living room floor
                - clean a bathtub
                - water all the plants in the house

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                I also found that children are overwhelmed by
           general directions such as "put your toys away" or "clean
           your room." So I approached their jobs with specific
           directions. I called them bite-size jobs. For example: a
           direction like "everyone pick up 100 Legos" would get
           them all going, and thousands of Legos would be picked up
           as they kept counting. Even the baby learned to count
           this way. Cleaning the room gets done better when you
           instruct, "pick up all the dirty clothes"; "now, make the
           bed," etc. Not only is the job less overwhelming, but the
           parent is involved and the child feels cared for.

                Sometimes I gave each child a grocery bag and asked
           them to pick up everything that wasn't in its right place
           and put it in the bag. I sat at the kitchen table and
           sorted out the dumped bags, telling them where to put
           things that I'd sorted. Thus, pins, paper clips, pennies,
           buttons, socks, papers, pencils and pens were cleared out
           and put away in short order. How much more difficult
           would it be for them to put each item away separately.

                Mowing the lawn may seem overwhelming until you say,
           "You mow for ten minutes while I trim the hedges." The
           point of these stories is that with busy, working
           parents, the whole family found joy in working together,
           work became play, and by sharing the work there was more
           time for other play.

           Playing Together
           ****************

                There are times when each of us enjoys our own
           particular activity but it's wonderful to find something
           everyone enjoys. For example, I found that doing
           exercises was fun for all the children while I worked at
           getting rid of my "tummy." We also found that shared
           playtimes, trips and vacations with other families were
           some of our greatest fun times. This puts less pressure
           on the small family unit to enjoy each other's activity.
           There was the time we spent a week at the beach with two
           other families with children the same age. Sometimes a
           family went fishing for a day together, other times it
           was the men and boys who fished, while the girls sat
           around and talked. Going camping as families is another
           such activity. One dad may take a nap while another takes
           the kids hiking. The tired dad may be ready to play a
           game with kids in the light of a campfire later that
           evening.

                Today's families have become smaller; children no
           longer have many brothers and sisters or even cousins
           with whom to play. It is hard for parents to always fill
           the need for companionship, but it's good to "be around."
           By several families sharing trips and vacations, there is
           great variety in fun-sharing. Parents spend time together

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           while the children play. Or, there are enough people to
           make a board game fun. This is especially true when a
           family has only one or two children or is a single parent
           with children.

           Family-Mates with the Same Values
           *********************************

                When children are young, the parents' values are
           easily passed on, but as the children grow older, values
           of peers make the greater impact. My husband and I found
           that the relationships made with other families (in our
           case it was church families) became the relationships
           which influenced our children most as teenagers. It is
           worth cultivating extended-family relationships when they
           are young, for they will often take such friendships into
           their youth.

                When our children were teenagers, we moved to
           another state. We knew it would be hard for them to find
           friends who shared our values. We knew a Japanese family
           who was moving back to Japan, and whose teenage children
           wanted to complete high school in America, so we offered
           to have their teenage girls live with us and go to school
           with our children. These built-in friends made the move
           much easier for everyone and our families still share a
           deep companionship. When there were four teenagers in the
           house there was less need for the kind of "entertainment"
           which can lead them into trouble. Finding "family-mates"
           isn't always easy. One might even try a notice or ad
           seeking to find a like-minded family to share time with
           as an alternative to the extended family.

           The Workplace
           *************

                I believe that our communities, employers and
           corporations will begin to pay more attention to need for
           a family-friendly workplace if we, as parents, make
           creative proposals for the provision of family-friendly
           workplaces. Take for instance, child care. For a working
           mother, finding the right child care situation is
           paramount. Some corporate parks and large corporations
           provide child care facilities for their employees. Let's
           push for more of this. I long to see the day when the
           family can work and be cared for in close proximity.

                Several years ago I worked as a psychological
           consultant in a nursing home. Absenteeism among employees
           was an enormous and expensive problem. Mothers of small
           children worked different shifts, including night shifts.
           I kept thinking that it would solve several problems if
           we included a flexible-hours child care facility in our
           large nursing homes. An additional benefit would be that
           the residents of the nursing home could watch the

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           children at play. Both parents and children could feel a
           sense of comfort in such proximity and could enjoy the
           convenience of flexible child care with no extra
           transportation. Hospitals and any other employers who
           hire round-the-clock help might consider this.

           Shorter Days, Shorter Weeks, and Shared Jobs
           ********************************************

                Jobs are jobs. Employers are employers. And work is
           work. A bit of creativity, however, could bring about a
           much improved situation for families with small children.
           If employers made shorter work days available to both
           mothers and fathers, precious extra family time would be
           available. A four-day week option would allow time for a
           parent to catch up on the extra needs of the family.

                Other options to create or seek maybe nine-day
           fortnights or "week-on, week-off" arrangements. Some
           places of employment have created weekend only jobs.

                Some husbands and wives have shared jobs, or two
           employees share a job with the agreement to cover the
           responsibilities between them. There is a wide variety of
           part-time arrangements or individualized contracts to be
           considered. What may seem impossible may, in fact, be not
           only possible but desirable to employers. Working by
           contract, for example, allows the employee flexibility
           while the employer may prefer not having to provide a
           benefit package. Penelope Leach, current spokeswoman for
           good child care, addresses many of these considerations
           in her book, "Children First: What Our Society Must
           Do-and is Not Doing-for our Children Today." 1 We might
           be able to be much more creative with our employers. It's
           worth a try.

           Working at Home
           ***************

                According to a report from Link Resources
           Corporation, a New York City based research and
           consulting firm, the total number of full and part time
           home based businesses recently hit 24.3 million; this is
           an increase of 2.1 million people from the preceding
           year. With the advent of computers, fax machines, and
           even the Internet, our homes can easily be converted to
           little work centers. Creative planning can change our
           work patterns, allowing us to join the ranks of those who
           work by contract from their homes. For a child, there's
           nothing more comforting than a parent at home. Modern
           technology is making it easier to conceive of working
           there. The trend involving the family working from the
           home rather than seeking both money and pleasure outside
           the home is often referred to as "cocooning." This
           growing trend is often attractive to both employers and

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           employees and avoids costs such as transportation, child
           care, and a more expensive wardrobe, as well as tax
           breaks when having an office in the home. According to
           Penelope Leach, "around six million American
           telecommuters currently use computer modems, fax machines
           and cellular phones installed for them by firms." 2

           Conclusion: Seeking Creative Solutions
           **************************************

                In conclusion, I believe parents need to take a look
           at the lifestyle trends of our times and think creatively
           about making new opportunities for parenting within them.
           The alternative is to turn a great deal of the parenting
           relationship over to educational and other social
           institutions, which might provide the training and
           entertaining, but not the security and belonging.
           Socializing institutions may turn out well-educated,
           well-trained children, but seldom do they turn out
           well-loved ones.

                Ultimately, every child must know that somebody
           loves him or her enough to make the sacrifices necessary
           to parent that child. Parenting is a wonderful God given
           opportunity to give and receive love. Carelessness or
           lack of attention to parenting in our younger years may
           deny us its rich rewards in later years.

                The setting and the pace may be different from those
           "good old days" -- but the exchange of love is the same
           and every day is an opportunity to watch it grow.

           Notes
           *****

                1. Penelope Leach, Children First: What Our Society
           Must do-and is Not Doing-for Our Children Today. Alfred
           A. Knopf, New York, 1994 2. Ibid
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                              Reprinted by permission from the book,
             "Raising Children of Peace", 1997, published by HSAUWC.
                    Nora Spurgin has a masters degree in social work
              with special training in psychodrama and hypnotherapy.
                  She is the author of "Insights into the Afterlife"
                       and is currently working on a book on angels.
                      She and her husband, Hugh, have four children.



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                              ORGANIZING FEELINGS
                             .....................

                                        by  Susan S. Campbell, Ph.D.

                We often deal with feelings about many things or
           people. It's as if we have thrown them all in a closet,
           and the closet frequently swings open and everything
           dumps out on our heads!

                So, we need to organize the closet: Mentally pull
           everything out of it, then paint it and put shelves in
           it. Next (still mentally), put boxes on the shelves, each
           with a label representing a relationship, person or event
           that we are struggling with. Then mentally put the
           feelings where they belong in the boxes (usually we try
           to do this quickly, without a lot of detail; kind of like
           "Mary Poppins!"). We can give ourselves permission to
           toss something in the box if it bothers us when we can't
           deal with it. But, we need to agree to periodically get
           down a box and go through what is in it.

                To do this, prepare a loose-leaf notebook with
           tabbed dividers which represent the box labels. Following
           each divider, then insert 6 sheets of paper. On the top
           of each is a level of feeling (borrowed from Barbara
           D'Angelis' book "How to Make Love All the Time"). These
           feelings include:

                - Anger and Frustration
                - Hurt
                - Fears
                - Remorse, responsibility and guilt
                - Wishes and Intentions
                - Love, Understanding, and Forgiveness

                Then write on the pages as needed, depending on what
           feelings seem to be most prevalent at that time. The
           papers seem to help carry the load of those feelings so
           we don't have to keep "processing" them. I have clients
           star those feelings or thoughts that are particularly
           meaningful or worrisome to them and we discuss them in
           therapy. It has relieved many clients of recurring
           feelings, so they could begin to progress and move
           forward. They can tell that they are healing when they
           are able to express the most positive feelings in the
           last two categories!
                                     ...............................
                                      Susan S. Campbell, Ph.D., is a
                                       Marriage and Family Therapist
                                                     in Logan, Utah.




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                                Mutton Bustin'
                               ................

                                                        by Kiesa Kay

                My six-year-old daughter is swaggering tonight.
           Ameli rode a sheep for fifteen seconds at the Estes Park
           Rooftop Rodeo. She wore her blue jeans, cowgirl shirt,
           cowgirl boots, pink suede vest and pink chaps. That girl
           looked great.

                In Mutton Bustin', six kids compete to see who can
           have the best ride on sheep. Each sheep runs, turns, and
           bucks a bit coming out of the chute. Yep, it's exciting.
           Ameli was the first one out of the chute on a sheep, and
           since the event's new this year, she's the first person
           to ride a sheep in competition in Estes Park. As you
           probably have guessed, this whole thing was totally her
           idea from the get-go. She found out about it on a
           brochure, filled out the paperwork, and woke me up at
           midnight on the registration day to ask if I'd registered
           her. Once we got to the place, she kept saying, "I hope I
           get the biggest sheep. I hope I get a fast one." And I
           kept saying, "Honey, if you change your mind, we can go
           on home."

                We had a wonderful time. The winner got new cowboy
           boots, and everybody got really nice belt buckles.
           Ameli's proud of her belt buckle.

                She's thinking now that she'd like to barrel race
           when she gets bigger. Would somebody tell me how I
           managed to give birth to a cowgirl who loves math? And an
           athletic son, too? With Benjamin, I've gained a stronger
           appreciation for baseball and basketball. Now, with
           Ameli, it looks like I'll be learning about rodeos and
           horses in a major way.

                I've been one of the liberals, worrying about how
           rodeo animals get treated and all. (They seemed to be
           healthy, fit and fine. Bulls have it best, steers have it
           worse. No surprises there.) The most surrealistic moment
           came when the rodeo crowd sang along to the Village
           People's "YMCA" song. "Do you think these folks know that
           the Village People are cross-dressing gay icons?" I asked
           Clark.

                Clark and I got to feel like Super Dad and Super
           Mommy, because we let our baby girl make a choice and
           take a chance that mattered to her, even though it wasn't
           our big thing. I love marriage, and this mommy stuff is
           the best. Still, wasn't I a Radical Feminist Vegetarian
           Activist a couple of years ago? Maybe my life's living


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           proof that God likes practical jokes and long naps. Then
           again, when the Dalai Lama was asked to summarize life in
           one word, he said, "Change."

                Change? But Life makes no cents!!!
                      ..............................................
                       You can e-mail Keisa Kay at: clarkcyr@msn.com


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                            The Lion Sleeps Tonight
                           .........................

                                                   By Betty St. John

                Spending the night at my Grandmother's was special.
           Her bed was huge. When we'd wake, she'd make us coffee.
           She would bring the cups into bed and we'd sip and watch
           the sunrise, listening to the lions roar for their
           breakfast at the zoo, just a few blocks away. And as I
           sipped, I would plan my day at the zoo. Great white
           hunters always planned their day over coffee in bed.

                The Ft. Worth Zoo is one of the best zoos in the
           country. Originally it was a WPA project, and the
           beautiful craftsmanship of the rock walls and benches is
           something you don't see anymore. As a child, my mother
           could go to the zoo alone and be utterly safe. So could
           I. I would walk over from Grandmother's house, arriving
           early, and spend what seemed like eternity there, having
           adventures, eating snow cones, and riding the rides. Yes!
           There were RIDES! I would climb on the same carousel that
           my mother rode as a child. It's a huge, affair with hand
           painted horses, benches and all sorts of animals to sit
           on. It had mirrors in the center, and it played old
           fashioned, calliope music. There was a Tilt-O-Whirl too.
           That was my favorite. I once dared myself to ride it ten
           times in a row! There was an aquarium, and when it got
           too hot, I'd go in and cool off in the air-conditioning.
           Way back in a remote area of the park, there's a tree
           with my mother's initials carved in the trunk. Once, when
           I was nine, I carved my initials under hers. I showed it
           to my children, and wished we didn't "know better." If we
           didn't, then they could have carved their initials under
           mine, and made a memory; carried on a tradition.

                By the time my children were old enough to go to the
           zoo, it had doubled in size. Children couldn't go there
           alone to play "explorer," or "lost in the woods." It
           wasn't safe. My children's memories of the zoo are of
           school trips. Of being supervised and educated as they
           wandered the beautiful park under the shade of hundred

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           year old oaks, and rested on the same rock benches I hid
           behind, hoping to bag a lion. They sat on the carousel I
           rode with Gene Autrey as my side kick. Their teacher
           stood by, shouting do's and don'ts. They rode on the
           Tilt-O-Whirl I once dared to challenge. It had seatbelts,
           and there was time for only one ride. My rides cost
           fifteen cents. Their's cost a dollar. I think about my
           memories of the zoo; of endless summer days playing
           "Great White Hunter" till the sun set. And I think about
           my children.

                When we talk about rising crime, it's mostly in
           terms of stolen property. If you ask me, "crime" has
           stolen something much more precious. It has stolen our
           children's chance to be carefree and imaginative and to
           feel safe, alone. They get no opportunity to be brave,
           fearless and independent. They're missing something
           magic.

                Today, when I go to the zoo, my heart quickens. I
           become the Great White Hunter again, hiding in the
           shadows, stalking a lion, ready for action.

                I see adventure everywhere! I don't know what my
           kids see...
                       .............................................
                                 Betty St. John is a Southern writer
                             living in Baton Rouge, LA. She co-hosts
                        a story telling web site at mommydearest.com
                                  Email: iseek2@popalex1.linknet.net



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                Mozart or Rock? For these Mice it was a No-brainer
               ....................................................

                                                   by Lorraine Eaton

                Your mom was right. Rock 'n' roll really does rot
           your brain.

                That's according to David Merrill, a 16 year old
           Nansemond River High School student whose high school
           science experiment supports what parents have been saying
           for years: Hard rock taints the brain - well, at least
           the brains of mice.

                Using 72 male laboratory mice, a stopwatch, a 5-by
           3-foot maze and the music of Mozart and Anthrax, David
           worked with an Old Dominion University statistician to
           establish that hard rock impedes learning.

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                In the process, the rising junior captured top
           honors in regional and state science fairs and earned
           accolades from the Navy and CIA.

                "Don't let kids listen to hard rock music," he said.
           "I think it has a major negative effect."

                To prove his point, David assembled three separate
           groups of 24 mice: A control group, a hard rock group and
           a classical group. To ensure scientific validity, each
           white mouse weighed between 15 and 20 grams, was 4-6
           weeks old and was bred to ensure that no genetic
           abnormalities existed.

                The mice spent the first week getting used to their
           controlled environment in David's parents' basement. They
           received measured feedings and 12 hours of light each
           day. Each mouse navigated the maze to establish the base
           time of about 10 minutes.

                Then David started piping in music 10 hours a day.
           The control group navigated without music. He put each
           mouse through the maze three times week for three weeks.

                The results: the control group shaved five minutes
           from its original time.

                The mice that navigated the maze with Mozart knocked
           8 1/2 minutes off their time. But the group listening to
           hard rock bumped through the maze, dazed and confused,
           taking an average of 30 minutes, tripling the amount of
           time it previously took to complete the maze. Most
           noticeably, the hard rock mice didn't sniff the air to
           find the trails of the others that went before them.

                "It was like the music dulled their senses," David
           said. "It shows point-blank that hard rock has a negative
           effect all around. I can't think of a positive effect
           that hard rock has on learning."

                In fact, David thinks that the negative effects go
           well beyond learning.

                During the four month experiment David housed each
           mouse in separate aquariums. That's because last year,
           for a similar project, he kept all of the hard rock mice
           together, all the classical mice together and all the
           control mice together. The results were horrific. "I had
           to cut my project short because all the hard rock mice
           killed each other," David said. "None of the classical
           mice did that."

                David's awards include first place in the behavioral
           science division at the Virginia State Science and
           Engineering Fair and the Tidewater Science Fair. He also

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           won Northern Virginia Community College's Veterinary
           Technology award and accolades from the Newport News Arts
           Commission, the Science and Humanitarian Symposium at
           James Madison University, the Navy and the CIA.

                David himself isn't a fan of hard rock, so his
           discovery won't effect his lifestyle too much. But other
           teens may feel the heat.

                "At the actual fairs parents would see it and come
           with their kids," David said. "They'd say, "See, I told
           you hard rock would do that.'"

                                    ................................
                                      Reprinted with permission from
                                     the Virginian-Pilot, 07/24/1997



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                       Instructions for the Young Bride
                      on the Conduct and Procedure of the
                    Intimate and Personal Relationships of
             the Marriage State for the Greater Spiritual Sanctity
                of this Blessed Sacrament and the Glory of God
            .......................................................

                                              by  Mrs. Ruth Smythers

                [Editor's Note: Mrs. Smythers, a pastor's wife,
           wrote this in 1894. Readers take note; we do NOT
           recommend her advice, but have included it for both its
           humorous and tragic elements. It's unfortunate that she
           was unaware of the depth of love that can grow between
           husband and wife, based on open and honest communication,
           and physical affection. One wonders how much marriages
           have suffered because of advice like her's.]

                                  ...........

                To the sensitive young woman who has had the
           benefits of proper upbringing, the wedding day is,
           ironically, both the happiest and most terrifying day of
           her life. On the positive side, there is the wedding
           itself, in which the bride is the central attraction in a
           beautiful and inspiring ceremony, symbolizing her triumph
           in securing a male to provide for all her needs for the
           rest of her life. On the negative side, there is the
           wedding night, during which the bride must pay the piper,
           so to speak, by facing for the first time the terrible
           experience of sex.

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                At this point, dear reader, let me concede one
           shocking truth. Some young women actually anticipate the
           wedding night ordeal with curiosity and pleasure! Beware
           such an attitude! A selfish and sensual husband can
           easily take advantage of such a bride. One cardinal rule
           of marriage should never be forgotten: GIVE LITTLE, GIVE
           SELDOM, AND ABOVE ALL, GIVE GRUDGINGLY. Otherwise what
           could have been a proper marriage could become an orgy of
           sexual lust.

                On the other hand, the bride's terror need not be
           extreme. While sex at best is revolting and at worse
           rather painful, it has to be endured, and has been by
           women since the beginning of time, and is compensated for
           by the monogamous home and by the children produced
           through it.

                It is useless, in most cases for the bride to
           prevail upon the groom to forego the sexual initiation.
           While the ideal husband would be one who would approach
           his bride only at her request and only for the purpose of
           begetting offspring, such nobility and unselfishness
           cannot be expected from the average man.

                Most men, if not denied, would demand sex almost
           every day. The wise bride will permit a maximum of two
           brief sexual experiences weekly during the first months
           of marriage. As time goes by she should make every effort
           to reduce this frequency.

                Feigned illness, sleepiness and headaches are among
           the wife's best friends in this matter. Arguments,
           nagging, scolding and bickering also prove effective, if
           used in the late evening about an hour before the husband
           would normally commence his seduction.

                Clever wives are ever on the alert for new and
           better methods of denying and discouraging the amorous
           overtures of the husband. A good wife should expect to
           have reduced sexual contacts to once a week by the end of
           the first year of marriage and to once a month by the end
           of the fifth year of marriage.

                By their tenth anniversary many wives have managed
           to complete their child bearing and have achieved the
           ultimate goal of terminating all sexual contacts with the
           husband. By this time she can depend upon his love for
           the children and social pressures to hold the husband in
           the home. Just as she should be ever alert to keep the
           quantity of sex as low as possible, the wise bride will
           pay equal attention to limiting the kind and degree of
           sexual contacts. Most men are by nature rather perverted,
           and if given half a chance, would engage in quite a
           variety of the most revolting practices. These practices
           include among others performing the normal act in

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           abnormal positions; mouthing the female body; and
           offering their own vile bodies to be mouthed in turn.

                Nudity, talking about sex, reading stories about
           sex, viewing photographs and drawings depicting or
           suggesting sex are the obnoxious habits the male is
           likely to acquire if permitted.

                A wise bride will make it the goal never to allow
           her husband to see her unclothed body, and never allow
           him to display his unclothed body to her. Sex, when it
           cannot be prevented, should be practiced only in total
           darkness. Many women have found it useful to have thick
           cotton nightgowns for themselves and pajamas for their
           husbands. These should be donned in separate rooms. They
           need not be removed during the sex act. Thus, a minimum
           of flesh is exposed. Once the bride has donned her gown
           and turned off all the lights, she should lie quietly
           upon the bed and await her groom. When he comes groping
           into the room she should make no sound to guide him in
           her direction, lest he take this as a sign of
           encouragement. She should let him grope in the dark.
           there is always the hope that he will stumble and incur
           some slight injury which she can use as an excuse to deny
           him sexual access.

                When he finds her, the wife should lie as still as
           possible. Bodily motion on her part could be interpreted
           as sexual excitement by the optimistic husband.

                If he attempts to kiss her on the lips, she should
           turn her head slightly so that the kiss falls harmlessly
           on her cheek instead. If he attempts to kiss her hand,
           she should make a fist. If he lifts her gown and attempts
           to kiss her anyplace else she should quickly pull the
           gown back in place, spring from the bed and announce that
           nature calls her to the toilet. This will generally
           dampen his desire to kiss in the forbidden territory.

                If the husband attempts to seduce her with
           lascivious talk, the wise wife will suddenly remember
           some trivial non-sexual question to ask him. Once he
           answers she should keep the conversation going, no matter
           how frivolous it may seem at the time.

                Eventually, the husband will learn that if he
           insists on having sexual contact, he must get on with it
           without amorous embellishment. The wise wife will allow
           him to pull the gown up no farther than the waist and
           only permit him to open the front of his pajamas to thus
           make connection.

                She will be absolutely silent or babble about her
           housework while he is huffing and puffing away. Above
           all, she will lie perfectly still and never under any

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           circumstances grunt or groan while the act is in
           progress. As soon as the husband has completed the act,
           the wise wife will start nagging him about various minor
           tasks she wishes him to perform on the morrow. Many men
           obtain a major portion of their sexual satisfaction from
           the peaceful exhaustion immediately after the act is
           over. Thus the wife must insure that there is no peace in
           this period for him to enjoy. Otherwise, he might be
           encouraged to soon try for more.

                One heartening factor for which the wife can be
           grateful is the fact that the husband's home, school,
           church and social environment have been working together
           all through his life to instill in him a deep sense of
           guilt in regards to his sexual feelings, so that he comes
           to the marriage couch apologetically and filled with
           shame, already cowed and subdued. The wise wife seizes
           upon this advantage and relentlessly pursues her goal
           first to limit, later to annihilate completely her
           husband's desire for sexual expression.

                     ...............................................
                                     Mrs. Ruth Smythers was the wife
                            of The Reverend L.D. Smythers, Pastor of
                                the Arcadian Methodist Church of the
                                        Eastern Regional Conference.
                                                Published in 1894 by
                                       Spiritual Guidance Press, NYC



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                                  Okay, God!

                                                         By Jo Smith

                As a divorced parent with four teenagers, there were
           many nights that I sweat buckets wondering how to rob
           Peter to pay Paul.

                I made a list once, of everything that had broken or
           died in just one month. There was: the refrigerator, the
           heating element in the dryer, and the transmission in the
           car. Lightening struck the fuse box and blew out the TV,
           the electrical sockets on one wall, and the compressor in
           the deep freeze. The only thing working seemed to be me.
           Now don't get me wrong, there were miracle days. I once
           had five bucks to my name with Christmas around the
           corner, and in my stack of bills came a letter from the
           mortgage company telling me, "You are $1,500.00 overpaid
           in your escrow account." A check from heaven.

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                But one night as I tossed and turned, I prayed and
           said out loud, "God, I know you don't give us more trials
           than you think we can handle...but I'm really sick of all
           this money business!"

                Immediately, I heard a cracking noise...and all four
           bed posts fell to the floor. My bed had just fallen
           apart!

                I sat up and shouted, "OK! all right! I promise! I
           will stop griping!"
                          ..........................................
                           Sylvia Jo Smith lives in Baton Rouge, LA.
                            She co-hosts a story telling web site at
                                                    mommydearest.com


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                        Who You Are Makes A Difference
                       ................................

                                                      Author Unknown

                A teacher in New York decided to honor each of her
           seniors in high school by telling them the difference
           they each made. Using a process developed by Helice
           Bridges of Del Mar, California, she called each student
           to the front of the class, one at a time. First she told
           them how the student made a difference to her and the
           class. Then she presented each of them with a blue ribbon
           imprinted with gold letters which read, "Who I Am Makes a
           Difference."

                Afterwards the teacher decided to do a class project
           to see what kind of impact recognition would have on a
           community. She gave each of the students three more
           ribbons and instructed them to go out and spread this
           acknowledgment ceremony. Then they were to follow up on
           the results, see who honored whom and report back to the
           class in about a week.

                One of the boys in the class went to a junior
           executive in a nearby company and honored him for helping
           him with his career planning. He gave him a blue ribbon
           and put it on his shirt. Then he gave him two extra
           ribbons, and said, "We're doing a class project on
           recognition, and we'd like you to go out, find somebody
           to honor, give them a blue ribbon, then give them the
           extra blue ribbon so they can acknowledge a third person
           to keep this acknowledgment ceremony going. Then please
           report back to me and tell me what happened."

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                Later that day the junior executive went in to see
           his boss, who had been noted, by the way, as being kind
           of a grouchy fellow. He sat his boss down and he told him
           that he deeply admired him for being a creative genius.

                The boss seemed very surprised. The junior executive
           asked him if he would accept the gift of the blue ribbon
           and would he give him permission to put it on him. His
           surprised boss said, "Well, sure."

                The junior executive took the blue ribbon and placed
           it right on his boss's jacket above his heart. As he gave
           him the last extra ribbon, he said, "Would you do me a
           favor? Would you take this extra ribbon and pass it on by
           honoring somebody else? The young boy who first gave me
           the ribbons is doing a project in school and we want to
           keep this recognition ceremony going and find out how it
           affects people."

                That night the boss came home to his 14-year-old son
           and sat him down. He said, "The most incredible thing
           happened to me today. I was in my office and one of the
           junior executives came in and told me he admired me and
           gave me a blue ribbon for being a creative genius.
           Imagine. He thinks I'm a creative genius. Then he put
           this blue ribbon that says 'Who I Am Makes A Difference'
           on my jacket above my heart. He gave me an extra ribbon
           and asked me to find somebody else to honor. As I was
           driving home tonight, I started thinking about whom I
           would honor with this ribbon and I thought about you. I
           want to honor you."

                "My days are really hectic and when I come home I
           don't pay a lot of attention to you. Sometimes I scream
           at you for not getting good enough grades in school and
           for your bedroom being a mess, but somehow tonight, I
           just wanted to sit here and, well, just let you know that
           you do make a difference to me. Besides your mother, you
           are the most important person in my life. You're a great
           kid and I love you!"

                The startled boy started to sob and sob, and he
           couldn't stop crying. His whole body shook. He looked up
           at his father and said through his tears, "I was planning
           on committing suicide tomorrow, Dad, because I didn't
           think you loved me. Now I don't need to."

                                 ...................................
                                   We received this contribution via
                                       e-mail. The author is unknown.






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                           The Movie Mom's Guide to
                           Family Movies and Videos
                          ..........................

                                                       by Nell Minow

                Reviews for parents of the best of current films and
           old movies available on video and cable, by Nell Minow,
           author, film critic, and mother. Reviews will be updated
           each week with recommendations and replies to questions
           about movies on special topics, suitability of particular
           movies for children, and movie trivia--try to stump me!
           I'd also love your suggestions for a new book on movies
           for families. The best kids' comments I receive will be
           published. The Movie Mom (TM)

           For Kids
           ********

           Flubber (1997)
           ..............

           Rated PG for cartoon-style violence
           and mild language, Recommended for 5 and up

                This remake of one of Disney's most fondly
           remembered films, "The Absent-Minded Professor" adds some
           terrific special effects, but loses some of the sweetness
           and heart of the original. As the titles suggest, the
           star of this version is not the professor, but his
           creation, the "flying rubber" that makes objects defy
           gravity. And the presence of producer/co-screenwriter
           John "Home Alone" Hughes means that the bad guys will get
           banged on the head many, many times.

                Robin Williams plays Philip Brainard. a professor at
           a small, financially troubled college, engaged to the
           dean, played by Marcia Gay Harden. Christopher MacDonald
           plays a rival scientist from a nearby college who wants
           both Brainard's discovery and his fiancee.

                I saw the movie in a theater filled with kids who
           laughed and applauded at the slapstick, but squirmed and
           chatted during the quieter spots in between. Robin
           Williams is very subdued as the professor so engaged in
           his work that he forgets to show up for his wedding. His
           best moment is in his lab, when he first sees flubber. He
           does not let his excitement in his new discovery overcome
           his job as a scientist in testing and analyzing the
           properties of his substance.

                Parents may want to discuss whether the use of
           flubber to win a basketball game is cheating (the
           professor dismisses this question by explaining that it

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           is all right because the other team is so much better).
           It is worth pointing out that Brainard has no interest in
           getting rich -- he sells his discovery to an auto company
           only to save the college. (Note that in the original, the
           professor gave flubber to the U.S. government, an
           indication of how times have changed.) Brainard has a
           delightful and highly anthropomorphic floating robot
           companion named Weebo, reminiscent of Tinkerbell. "Her"
           sweet voice is provided by Jodi Benson (also the voice of
           Ariel, the little mermaid) and her commentary is spiked
           with a kaleidoscope of video clips. Weebo's jealousy of
           Brainard's fiancee may need some explaining, and her
           "death" may be upsetting for some children.

           Fairy Tale: A True Story
           .........................

           (1997) Rated PG for brief mild language and brief
           scenes of wounded soldiers, recommended for 7 and up

                In 1917, two little English girls captured the
           attention of the world when they took photographs of what
           appeared to be fairies. As this movie makes clear, the
           appeal of the girls' story was especially powerful in a
           country devastated by the first World War. While the
           charming special effects and appealing heroines will make
           this movie enjoyable for younger children, it is truly a
           more ambitious meditation on the nature of fantasy and
           reality and on growing up, well worth using as a
           springboard to discussion with middle schoolers and even
           high schoolers. At one point, the movie cuts back and
           forth between three scenes showing variations on the
           theme: Houdini's escape act (illusion), a chess
           tournament (logic), and a reporter's attempt to look
           through the girls' house to find the truth about the
           photos (reality and fantasy are combined, as he seems to
           find the answer but then has an encounter of his own).
           The fairies are (enchantingly) portrayed as real, and the
           girls' belief absolutely genuine. Interestingly, though,
           in the final scene, the younger girl finds a reality far
           more important than any fairy tale.

                In real life, two of the most legendary figures of
           the day, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (creator of Sherlock
           Holmes) and Houdini (the great magician and escape
           artist) were on opposite sides. Ironically, the creator
           of the world's most resolutely logical detective was a
           fervent believer that the photos were authentic, and the
           world's most famous illusionist was convinced that they
           were faked. And in real life, long after Conan Doyle and
           Houdini were gone, the girls confessed that they had
           faked the photos.

                In the movie, the fairies are real, and the special
           effects are as enchanting as an Arthur Rackham

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           illustration. Conan Doyle, played by Peter O'Toole, and
           Houdini, played by Harvey Keitel both support the girls.
           Conan Doyle, still struck by the loss of his son in the
           war, needs badly to believe. Houdini, the master
           illusionist, sees them as peers, not out for anything for
           themselves, just adding joy and wonder to the world.

                If you would like to look at the photos that started
           all of this, try this link: Fairy Photos

                     ...............................................
                             The Movie Mom's Guide is on the web at:
                     http://pages.prodigy.com/moviemom/moviemom.html
                            "Movie Mom" is a trademark of Nell Minow
                                    All material (C) 1997 Nell Minow
                                               Email: nminow@usa.net


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                              - HeartQuestions -
                         Questions & Reflections about
                     Marriage, Parenting, Family & Society
                    ---------------------------------------

                         [Origin of the Wedding March;
                   Finding the Heart to Love Step-Children;
               Winning a Daughter's Approval of a New Boyfriend]

                                                   by Peter F. Brown

           DEAR PETER:

                Where did the wedding March come from? Why is it
           used? You kinda get tired of hearing "tum tum tum, etc."
           We really need to know; it's driving us crazy.

           Jessika Flores

           DEAR JESSICA:

                The wedding march that you're talking about is known
           as the Wedding March Processional, or "Here Comes the
           Bride." It was written by Wagner, as part of his opera,
           "Lohengren." It was first used at a wedding during the
           Civil War. The original manuscript can be viewed at the
           Karpeles Manuscript Library. More information can be
           found at their web site, at
           www.rain.org/~karpeles/wedmchdis.html. The other famous
           wedding march is the Wedding March Recessional, from
           Felix Mendelssohn's "A Midsummer Night's Dream." This
           manuscript is also kept at the above museum.

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           DEAR PETER:

                I need help. I am torn between what I know is right
           and what I feel. I have been married for nine months and
           we have been having ongoing problems. My husband has been
           married before which resulted in three, count them three,
           children. He doesn't see them often but when he does he
           expects me to be with him. To be honest, they mean
           nothing to me. I do not wish to spend time with them at
           all. It is not that I don't like them. I do. It is just
           that my own time should be my own time. It is almost like
           I am fighting with myself.

                I know I shouldn't feel this way, but how do I stop
           these feelings? I dread the thoughts of them [the
           children] coming, especially for the night. How can I
           overcome this? I just want them to disappear. Isn't that
           awful? Help me. Help my marriage. Help !!!!! What can I
           do to get rid of these feelings? I really love my husband
           and most of the time our marriage is great. What can I
           do??

           Julie Mckinnon

           DEAR JULIE:

                I think that the burden that step-parents have to
           overcome is far greater than the difficulties of physical
           parents. It's very difficult to adequately love our own
           children -- caring for children that are not ours is even
           harder. Mothers have nine months to gain a heartistic
           relationship with their soon-to-be-born babies -- a
           gradual and mysterious process that often surprises them
           in its intensity and results. Women who had no desire to
           have children suddenly find themselves overwhelmed with
           love for their new infants.

                Step-mothers have no physical relationship with the
           husband's children, and thus have to deal with the fact
           that they may not feel very parental to the children.
           There may also be complicated feelings toward the
           children caused by the fact that their mother is the
           husband's former wife -- who probably isn't on very good
           terms with the step-mother.

                You also didn't marry the children -- you married
           your husband after falling in love with him. Having to
           love his children is a new, and frankly, a sacrificial
           burden that probably wasn't in your mind at all when you
           met him. The question then, is how to develop the heart
           that can love his children with a sense of genuine joy
           and gratitude.

                Parents often fail at this, even when the children
           are their own. Step-parents really do have a hard job. I

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           believe, though, that it is possible to develop the
           ability to care for and love step-children, just as it's
           possible to love any children.

                The real issue is the quality of parental love that
           we are able to feel and express. A person of parental
           love is very much like a furnace. A furnace casts its
           warmth on anyone within its range, because that's the
           nature of furnaces. The heat springs forth from within
           the furnace as a creative force. Everyone has the
           capability to become a creative force of parental love.
           Everyone has the ability to freely give to others, serve
           others and love others. It's our nature to want to bring
           joy to others, and to feel joy ourselves, by giving and
           receiving love. That's the good news.

                The bad news is that even furnaces have to be stoked
           with fuel, and it's a sad fact that human beings
           regularly run out of fuel when it comes to loving others.
           When we're out of gas, we just can't seem to muster up
           the strength of heart to express love to those who
           require a "parental" heart.

                How do we refuel ourselves? To me, this question can
           only be answered by asking the 64 million dollar
           question, "Where does love come from?" No one has seen
           love, but it's still commonly regarded as the most
           powerful force in the universe. I think that it's very
           logical to say that love -- and most especially
           unselfish, parental love -- comes from God. If so, a
           practical method to use to re-stoke our internal furnace
           of love and heart would be to simply pray that we can
           love others more. If all of us, from any and every
           religion, knelt down each day in repentance, and prayed
           to love others more, serve others more, and give to
           others more, families -- and the world, would be far more
           peaceful and harmonious.

                By the mere fact that you wrote such a heartfelt
           letter, one can see that you, too, have the capacity to
           give the beautiful part of your heart to your husband's
           children. Your heart just needs to be encouraged a bit,
           and watered. Prayer will do that.

           DEAR PETER:

                I have a 14 year old daughter and have been divorced
           for 3 years. She is very UNACCEPTING of me dating and
           going out. I have become seriously involved with a man
           who she says she really likes. But, when he jokes around
           with her, she gets very upset and says hateful things to
           him and to me.

                How and what can I do to explain (without getting in
           a fight with her) that this is who I want the

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           relationship to work out with? He is very understanding
           and tells me not to worry, that it won't affect our
           relationship, but I have my doubts. Thanks!

           Liz H.

           DEAR LIZ:

                It may be that the type of joking he's doing with
           your daughter makes her uncomfortable. One tact that you
           can take is to work with him to see what he can do to win
           her heart and help her to feel that he cares about her.
           What are her hobbies? Perhaps he can participate with you
           in helping her with her favorite activity. He may also
           wish to give her a small gift once or twice.

                You can also talk honestly with her about your new
           boyfriend, and the whole issue of getting married. At
           fourteen, she would feel honored to be trusted by you,
           and be treated as an ally in the quest to establish a new
           family. Ultimately, your love for her, and his love for
           her, as her new step-dad, should win her over.
            ........................................................
                           Peter F. Brown is the author of the book,
                           "Striving for Parental Love" and lives in
                      Virginia Beach, VA with his wife Kim and their
                   four children, Tymon, Thea Grace, Ranin and Tadin
                          HeartQuestions is published as a column on
                                   The HeartThread Resource Page at:
                                            "http://futurerealm.com"
                                   Email: peterbrown@futurerealm.com


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                          Princess Diana and Ponette
                         ............................

                                                 by Kim Korman Brown

                The weekend of August 31, I went to see the movie,
           "Ponette", a French film about a four year old girl
           coping with the death of her mother by car accident. The
           performance of the little actress, Victoire Thivisol, was
           vivid and profound. When she prayed to God that her
           mother could come back, tears spilled as if we were
           viewing the scene in reality. I wonder how they got this
           little actress to pull up such deep and real emotion
           without manipulating her in the tradition of 1940's
           Hollywood movie making. A famous example of that is the
           scene from "Meet Me in St. Louis" in which the child
           actress Margaret O'Brien ran outside in tears, and
           smashed the snowmen in her yard. Interviews with fellow

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           cast members later revealed that the producers or
           director had lied to her about the death of her dog, (or
           something similar,) to evoke the desired intensity for
           the scene.

                Whatever techniques were used to guide the
           performance of Victoire Thivisol, I was deeply moved. It
           is pitiful to see a little child crying for the mother
           that she will never see again in this life, and to know
           there is nothing you can do to help her. That night I
           thought and prayed about the situation of children all
           over the world, who have had their parents taken from
           them suddenly.

                When I came home from seeing "Ponette", I gathered
           my children around me and kissed and hugged them and
           reassured them of my love for them. It made me pledge
           anew to try to be a better parent.

                I opened my newspaper the very next morning to read
           the tragic headline that Diana, Princess of Wales, had
           died in a car accident. The irony of the fact that I had
           just been thinking of that topic the night before, and
           had prayed for children thrown into such a situation,
           made it all the more eerie. In the case of Ponette, her
           father didn't believe in God, and accused her of being
           crazy when she prayed for answers about her mother. With
           Prince William and Prince Harry, I hope that their father
           will be able to do more for them. In his own way, I think
           Prince Charles truly cares, and I am sure that the whole
           sad event is causing him to go through deep soul
           searching.

                Princess Diana once said that she knew she could
           give love to people in need; for a minute, for a half
           hour, for a day. I think that she believed that giving
           love to others was the most valuable work she could do.
           So many others in her position have not risen to such
           dedication, when they were blessed with the same benefits
           of money, status and good looks. It was the best legacy
           she could give to Prince William and Prince Harry.

                My prayer for Prince William and Prince Harry is
           that they will pray and cling to God during this terrible
           time in their young lives. As they grow to adulthood, I'm
           sure they will think of her every day and will miss her
           love profoundly. The testimony to her life is a world
           that grieves her death and would not do so unless the
           love she expressed was genuine. Because the world will
           not forget her, those boys will always have her with them
           until they are reunited one day in eternity. Hopefully,
           they will pick up the torch and carry on her work. I'm
           sure that if they do, it will make her smile down on them
           all the more.


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                Many people are thinking that it is more than a
           coincidence that Princess Diana and Mother Teresa died in
           the same week. As a friend of mine said, Mother Teresa
           was a mother figure representing the religious world, and
           the princess was a mother figure representing the secular
           world. The world is grieving for both of them. Another
           friend said that she imagined them holding hands in the
           next life, and thought that their deaths underscored the
           fact that God is still in charge of things.

                I have been deeply saddened to hear some people say
           that Princess Diana brought the disaster upon herself
           with her adulterous lifestyle. They have stated that she
           was divorced, that she should have been a better role
           model, and that she wasn't setting the right example.

                I think that she had flaws like all of us who are
           imperfect, and that those flaws influenced her to make
           decisions that she may have regretted later in life.
           Still, I think that those mistakes are just details,
           things that could have been repented for and gotten
           beyond. There are many people who have never committed
           adultery but have never served or loved anyone outside
           their immediate circle.

                In spite of the fact that prior to her wedding, she
           discovered that her husband was involved with another
           woman, she went ahead with the wedding. In spite of the
           fact that she suffered from insecurity, eating disorders,
           depression, and had attempted suicide, she maintained her
           public life. She never felt truly accepted by the royal
           family. The fact that she dealt with these things from
           the age of 19 is doubly hard. Few among us could have
           weathered what she went through without becoming
           resentful, cynical or completely self-centered. Her
           brother Charles, the Earl of Spencer, said that because
           of her suffering she could understand the suffering of
           others. She chose to rise above her trials and devote
           herself to a public life of charity. That decision is to
           her credit.

                Wasn't it an adulterous woman who recognized Jesus'
           value and poured expensive oil on his head, while the
           disciples whispered their criticisms? Mother Teresa said
           of Diana, "She was very concerned for the poor. She was
           very anxious to do something for them. That is why she
           was close to me."

                If she was good enough for Mother Teresa, she was
           good enough for me.

                             .......................................
                             Kim Korman Brown is a writer and a Mom,
                                  living in Virginia Beach, Virginia
                                     Email: kimbrown@futurerealm.com

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