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                                                         - The Journal of

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                                                           Vol. 1, No. 10







                                                         October 31, 1996





















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     Vol. 1, No. 10                                      October 31, 1996


       "To promote and encourage the 'thread' of unselfish heart and love
        that invisibly connects husbands and wives, parents and children,
                                               and brothers and sisters."
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           From the Editor
           ...............

                Well, dear readers, here is the October issue of the
           HeartThread Journal (past the October 31st deadline by 12
           days, but still in the same year!) :-)

                I have to admit that the biggest job with this
           journal is gathering articles. There are many couples and
           parents out there having great experiences that they
           could share with everyone -- but not everyone is in the
           habit of writing about them. (Not even considering the
           frantic schedule that many people live by, these days.)

                I'd like to encourage all of you to write about your
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           is a free ad at the bottom of the journal. Your ad will
           reach a steadily growing readership (well over 300!) The
           Journal is here to stay.

                I'm delighted that this issue contains a great
           article about international marriage and parenting --
           written by Tom Phillips from the Ukraine. It's longer
           than our normal articles, but I didn't cut it because I
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                                               Peter F. Brown
                                               Editor & Publisher

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                               TABLE OF CONTENTS


           * From the Editor, Peter F. Brown ......................1


           * Parenting from the Experience of
             a Multicultural Family,
             by C. Thomas Phillips ................................5


           * Protecting Your Children on the Internet,
             by Lloyd Pumphrey ...................................11


           * Trash and the Dawning of Consciousness,
             by Claire Bowles ....................................13


           * Leah, by Olga S. Hardman ............................16


           * The Movie Mom's Guide to Movies
             and Videos for Families, by Nell Minow ..............20
             (Review of "Fly Away Home")


           * HeartQuestions / Questions & Reflections
             about Marriage, Parenting & Family Issues
             "An Unruly 4 Year Old Nephew", by Peter F. Brown ....21


           * Yub Makes Me Happy,
             by Kim Korman Brown .................................24


           * The HeartThread Resource Guide:
             Resources for Couples, Parents & Families ...........27










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                       Parenting from the Experience of
                            a Multicultural Family
                      ..................................

                                               by C. Thomas Phillips

                Although by all appearances my family of origin is
           an average white American family of European background,
           my grandparents on my mother's side were native
           Americans. Raised with an awareness of my native American
           background, I also became painfully aware of the lack of
           harmony between the two races.

                The discrimination which my grandfather experienced
           had led him to deny his Indian background as ignoble and
           pagan. This denial of his inheritance produced a silent
           suffering which he was to bear throughout his life. On
           one occasion he said to me, "Never marry outside of your
           race, because it is the children who suffer. They will
           have no place where they truly belong." However, later it
           was my grandfather, a Christian minister, who was to
           preside over our civil marriage, after coming to
           appreciate the contribution which my Japanese wife
           brought to our family. He interpreted our marriage as a
           return to our family's native American background because
           of the resemblance of Orientals to some native Americans.

                The conflict between native American culture and
           European culture remains unresolved. Native Americans had
           to leave their culture behind on the reservation to join
           the dominant culture. Part of my personal quest for
           identity was to resolve this historical conflict which I
           had inherited. International marriage appealed to me as a
           logical solution or perhaps even my destiny.

           Genuine Love Requires a Sacrifice
           .................................

                In order for multiracial or multicultural marriages
           to be successful, couples should be prepared to sacrifice
           previously held ideals or norms about the family. Usually
           our model for parenting comes from experiences growing up
           with our parents, which varies even within one culture.
           However, especially when your spouse comes from a
           different race or nationality, it is necessary to
           recognize that the roles ascribed to husbands and wives,
           fathers and mothers may differ drastically from culture
           to culture.

                My wife's father had indisputable authority in the
           family, while my parents shared authority. In the
           beginning of our family life I expected to discuss issues
           with my wife to reach a common agreement. However, my
           wife expected me to assume the role held by her father

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           and to give clear direction. This difference in
           understanding of our roles sometimes led to tensions in
           our relationship or confusion. However, this dilemma
           forced me to take more initiative and assume greater
           responsibility, while stimulating my wife to be more
           reflective and expressive about her own viewpoint and
           feelings.

                Genuine love often requires a sacrifice of
           individual concerns or desires for the sake of the
           happiness of significant others. One of the unique
           sacrifices made in international marriages is often
           language. Although Americans are very open about their
           feelings and are accustomed to articulating themselves,
           Japanese generally have a negative concept about people
           who easily express themselves. In the Japanese culture,
           feelings are often kept deep inside -- to the degree that
           one can lose touch with his or her real feelings.
           Feelings are often conveyed in Japanese very subtly by a
           single word and sometimes silence conveys a whole volume
           of thought. An international couple with different native
           languages has to work out how to communicate, finding a
           "common language" through which they can convey their
           feelings, moods and concerns.

                Also, in international marriages, spouses may have
           differing childhood memories of national or religious
           holidays. Therefore, it becomes necessary to decide which
           traditions your multicultural family will transmit to
           your children. Couples have to go through a process of
           rethinking the values transmitted in various traditions
           and then how they can be reapplied into their family
           tradition.

                Although some sacrifices are required, there is also
           the rich possibility of realizing a higher level of love
           as two opposite cultures meet in marriage. Our approach
           to parenting has been to create a nurturing environment
           for our children based on our efforts to harmonize the
           two cultures represented in our marriage. We have sought
           to understand and learn from one another, bringing out
           the best aspects of our cultures as the foundation to
           educate our children.

                From the outset, we were challenged with how to
           harmonize our different concepts about celebrating our
           children's first birthdays. The first celebration, which
           I had left totally to my wife's discretion, was an affair
           with adults enjoying a very nice meal while the children
           were left to play among themselves.

                Her family celebrated their birthdays simply -- with
           a special meal together and without any special gifts or
           party. In my family, there was always a lot of ingenuity
           involved in celebrating; one year a skating party, the

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           next year at the beach, and so forth. My wife and I had
           to discuss the benefits of having a special celebration
           while at the same time teaching our children to
           appreciate simple and intimate gatherings as a family.

                Another experience that we have crossed over in our
           family is how to recognize Christmas. For many Americans,
           Christmas brings special memories and feelings. My wife
           had celebrated it in Japan with a cake and the exchange
           of cards among a few friends. We were undecided if we
           should introduce gift giving at Christmas into our family
           tradition, due to the excessive commercial emphasis.
           However, upon recounting the story of the Magi offering
           gifts to Christ as the inspiration for gift-giving at
           Christmas, we could appreciate the original motivation
           for the tradition. Then, by using gift-giving as an
           opportunity to teach our children the value of giving
           rather than anticipating and expecting what would be
           given to them, we could give them moral guidance and
           share the Christmas story.

                We have never studied parenting or even formally
           discussed our different approaches to parenting. However,
           we are in agreement that parenting has a great deal to do
           with the quality of our relationship as husband and wife.
           In order to guide our children to be mature, loving and
           interdependent people, we are striving to live a
           principle centered life which can inspire our children.
           We recognize that our limitations will influence our
           children's spiritual and moral development. Therefore, as
           parents, we feel that we should be continuously seeking
           our own spiritual growth.

                Today there is much talk about returning to
           traditional family values -- as though there is some
           ideal state which the family has enjoyed in the past.
           However, evidence from anthropologists and sociologists
           point to the fact that families have been evolving
           throughout history. This evolution comes in part as a
           response to balance the needs of the family within the
           social environment.

                Therefore, families in different cultures have
           responded in different ways to the needs for independence
           and interdependence of family members. Family members are
           interdependent upon one another for material and
           spiritual needs; however, each family member also seeks
           some degree of independence to be well-adjusted
           emotionally and spiritually within the social
           environment.

                David Ausburger, a Mennonite professor of pastoral
           counseling, has examined different family types in
           different cultures and has identified paradoxical needs
           found in all families; such as the need for

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           interdependence and independence, the need for horizontal
           relationships and vertical relationships, the need for
           love and justice, and the needs of inner directed
           security and outer directed service to the community.*
           Families are challenged to find some balance between the
           poles of these paradoxes. This structure will serve as
           the format for describing the process our family is
           encountering in our effort to create balance and harmony
           between American and Japanese cultures.

           Interdependence / Independence
           ..............................

                In my wife's family of origin each family member had
           a responsibility and a destiny relative to their position
           in the family. There were very clear expectations for
           each of the family members based on their order of birth.

                In my family of origin each member of the family was
           a highly differentiated individual. Both my mother and
           father were wage earners; therefore, both shared
           household responsibilities and came to decisions as equal
           partners. However, the high degree of differentiation
           within our family made it difficult at times to come
           together as a family.

                Because we have experienced the strengths and
           weaknesses of both families with highly interdependent
           relations and highly independent lifestyles, my wife and
           I consciously seek the qualities lacking in our family
           backgrounds. We have tried to create a sense of the
           special responsibility that each person has towards the
           family while trying to create an atmosphere where
           spontaneity allows us to respond to the needs of our
           children as individuals. We want our children to be
           interdependent, to find a balance between developing
           their own unique abilities and characteristics and
           maintaining a sense of duty toward other members of the
           family.

           Horizontal / Vertical
           .....................

                In my wife's family there was a very strong sense of
           vertical order which was more important than horizontal
           relationships. The primary relationship was between the
           parents and children. In her home, after a certain age,
           her mother slept with her and her sister, and her father
           slept with her four brothers. This vertical order
           extended into a strong awareness of their ancestors,
           going back many generations, and an awareness of
           responsibility to future generations. However, in the
           Japanese family the relationships and obligations between
           children and parents are often emphasized more than the
           relationships and obligations between the parents. This

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           creates some confusion about the value of the husband and
           wife relationship beyond child bearing.

                In my own family experience, like most American
           families, horizontal relationships were more emphasized.
           The primary relationship of American families is the
           relationship between the parents. The parent/child
           relationship is more secondary. The parents are not
           viewed with the respect given in Oriental societies and
           usually seek a relationship more like an elder friend.
           Also, my family had little awareness about our ancestors
           except for our American Indian ancestors, and only a
           vague sense of responsibility to future descendants.

                We have felt the importance of our relationship as
           parents as the root of love in our family. But also our
           relationship with our children is very important. We have
           often felt that our children's inability to love or
           overcome certain situations is directly related to our
           own problems. It is as though the vertical relationship
           between parents and children determines the quality of
           their horizontal love among each other. We have enjoyed
           adding into our family tradition aspects of my wife's
           family experience such as sleeping together with our
           children. At the same time we try to demonstrate to our
           children our loving relationship as a couple. We teach
           our children to respect their parents by the respect we
           show to one another, while not becoming so distant that
           they cannot share their feelings easily with us. Also,
           the vertical aspect of awareness of the presence of our
           ancestors and our responsibility to future generations
           has given an added sense of meaning and purpose to our
           family life.

           Love / Justice
           ..............

                Unconditional love is an important aspect of true
           love; however, the wholeness of the family must be
           maintained by a sense of fairness and justice. My wife's
           experience in family life was affected by being one of
           six children. My wife has a strong expectation that
           children should observe principles of conduct and
           behavior in respect to their position in the family.

                My parents expressed love and unconditional
           acceptance of their children regardless of performance.
           We were given a great deal of trust and freedom, while
           discipline was usually only given when things seemed to
           be getting out of control. This may also be the result of
           coming from a family with only two children.

                While children need to feel unconditional love from
           their parents, without learning order and justice in the
           family children cannot become responsible members of

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           society and learn to control their own desires at times
           for the sake of the whole. In this area I have gained
           much from my wife's approach to be more strict and
           demanding of our children when they are young, and then
           gradually giving them greater freedom and responsibility
           as they grow older. Discipline can also be an expression
           of true love, sometimes giving children a greater sense
           of their parents' love than a more compromising love.

           Inner Directed Security / Outer Directed Service
           ................................................

                Sometimes parenting and public life are seen as
           conflicting poles of family life. Traditionally, fathers
           have taken the role of public service and mothers the
           role of parenting. Families inwardly are directed to
           guarantee the protection of the individuals within the
           family, while also serving the larger society.

                The greatest joy for our children is seeing their
           parents lovingly relating to one another. This gives them
           a great sense of security and value. However, we
           recognize something is always lacking in our ability to
           give to each child according to their needs. Therefore,
           in our family we have also emphasized the need for
           serving others outside of our immediate family. We have
           tried to give our children a sense of pride that their
           parents are also living for a purpose greater than their
           own family. They then feel proud when they are asked to
           make a sacrifice as a family -- such as when our service
           requires us to be away from one another. As we reach out
           in service to society, we bring back to the family a
           deeper love and appreciation for one another. Others are
           then drawn into our family -- giving to our children in
           areas where we are lacking.

           Conclusion
           ..........

                As a multicultural couple we have sought to bridge
           our cultures through our relationship of love. Centered
           upon principles of true love we have sought to establish
           a family nourished by the best of both cultures. We want
           our children to become global citizens and world leaders
           who can usher in an era of peace and harmony among people
           of all cultures and races.

                I admire those who have developed techniques to
           control the behavior of their children and to
           systematically guide them. However, rather than relying
           on external techniques, we have approached the problem
           primarily as an internal problem. As parents, we have
           sought first to be people of integrity who are always
           following our conscience, and then are faithful to one
           another in marriage. We then try to teach our children to

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           demonstrate filial piety in response to our love for
           them. The results of our efforts will be measured by our
           ability to raise children who are mature individuals and
           responsible citizens of society.

                Our family is truly our school of love. Not only are
           we teachers for our children, but at times our children
           become our teachers. Our family endeavors to uplift the
           multi-cultural family and children of mixed races. We
           also hope to demonstrate that no matter how great the
           differences are between a husband and wife, by practicing
           true love the sharp edges delineating those differences
           can be softened. If children can witness the loving
           relationship of their parents, they will be better
           equipped to embrace others, however different they might
           be.

                Having our children ask which is better -- Japanese
           culture or American culture -- is like asking whether
           their mother or father is better. During a small
           disagreement between my wife and myself, our daughter
           turned to us and said, "I know the answer... you are both
           right!" The multicultural family can serve as an example
           and a model for the realization of world peace by raising
           children who equipped to build a better world -- where
           people can respect and gain from others who are
           different.

                   * David W. Augsburger. Pastoral Counseling Across
                 Cultures. Philadelphia: The Westminster Press, 1986

                ....................................................
                          C. Thomas Phillips is the President of the
                Family Federation for World Peace in the CIS/Baltics
              and the Executive Director of the International Relief
                         and Friendship Foundation in Russia/Ukraine
                                              Email: tp@glas.apc.org



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                   Protecting Your Children on the Internet
                  ..........................................

                                                   by Lloyd Pumphrey

                If you are reading this then you are on the Internet
           and the chances are, you have children. One of the
           biggest concerns about having access to the internet is
           the access to pornography.

                Here are some tips on protecting your children from
           web pages that you do not want them to view.

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                1. One of the best monitoring methods is simple: be
           aware of what your children are doing. You should be able
           to walk in on them at any given time without them
           reacting with guilt or hiding something. Put your
           computer in a public place such as a den or living room
           where there are no closed doors. It is a deterrent to
           children to get into something they shouldn't if they can
           be accidently discovered.

                2. If you can't monitor them, there are ways of
           checking on what they have been viewing after they have
           logged off the Internet. Most browsers have a "cache"
           where they keep the images and web pages on your hard
           drive, so that you don't have to download a page of
           information every time you go to it. There is usually a
           directory named "cache" under your browser's directory.

                If you look in this directory, it can contain
           hundreds of smaller files depending on how often your
           browser deletes them. Usually, the browser will purge
           files from the directory that are over a certain number
           of days old. You can set this in your browser's options.
           The extensions on these files are mostly HTM, JPG, or
           GIF. HTM are text files and are what appears as text in
           your browser. If you look at these files with your
           browser, they will pretty much come up as a web page
           without the pictures. The JPG and GIF files are pictures
           -- you can also view these with your browser.

                It is very incriminating to bring your child in and
           confront him (or her) with a page or picture he (or she)
           was not supposed to view on the computer. Most children
           will not know that you can do this, and the knowledge
           that you can will be a deterrent. As a suggestion, don't
           let them know about this unless it is necessary, or else
           they will find ways to get around it.

                3. If you are concerned about your children
           accidently accessing a page, then there are some other
           options. First of all, most OVER 18 or OVER 21 sites have
           a warning page before the actual site, to cover
           themselves legally. You have to electronically "sign"
           stating that you are not a minor. Usually, they have
           other clauses in there to protect themselves. Of course,
           they have no way of verifying the user except through a
           verification service, and a lot of sites don't use those
           services.

                4. One way of protecting your children is through
           special software that either acts as a plugin or browser.
           These watch for key words that are associated with
           pornography and will not allow access to them. For
           example, if it is set up to reject the word "SEX" then
           your children will not be allowed to use that as a search
           word. This software can be found over the Internet or in

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           computer stores. Some examples are SURF WATCH, NET NANNY,
           or CYBER PATROL. Of course, the best way of monitoring
           them is the first option I listed.

                5. Another good way of helping your children net
           surf is by giving them kids' options. There are literally
           thousands of kid-oriented web pages and services. Take
           time to review these with you children. I downloaded a
           wonderful computer program for my 2 year old daughter
           from one such site. You can find everything from games to
           stories. Many sites such as search engines or business
           sights will have kid's pages or links. Another site that
           I found had Japanese stories in both English and
           Japanese.

                The WWW can be a wonderful place for information,
           entertainment and education if it is used properly. All
           it takes is a little bit of effort.

                [Editor's Note: I'm even more radical than Lloyd. I
           think that the Internet is absolutely not child safe, and
           that the best method of protecting our children is to not
           let them surf alone at all. There are just too many ways
           that they can run across questionable material on their
           own. Still, Lloyd offers an array of options that may be
           helpful to parents.]
                                    ................................
                                          Lloyd Pumphrey is a parent
                                     and a writer, living in Oregon.
                                    Email: pumphrey@main.rosenet.net



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                    Trash and the Dawning of Consciousness
                   ........................................

                                                    by Claire Bowles

                Since the 1920's, and until now, people have studied
           to find out just when the dawning of consciousness occurs
           in babies.

                It is not known why, but the research is conclusive
           that the much-pondered "dawning of consciousness" is
           inextricably tied to the family trash.

                There is a distinct period of time during which the
           actual "dawning" is taking place. The period of time is
           about six months in length, and the level of
           consciousness that the baby has attained is measured in
           part by the baby's determination to reach said family
           trash. There are five levels of consciousness which I

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           list below so you may see just how conscious your baby
           is. Please don't worry if your baby doesn't seem too
           conscious yet ... all babies DO become conscious sooner
           or later. And look at it this way: the later your baby
           becomes conscious, the longer your house will be clean.

                Level one: Early Dawning. At this stage, your baby
           will first catch sight of the family trash, usually kept
           in the kitchen. Further studies are being made as to
           whether dawning is connected to the contents of the
           kitchen trash as opposed to the office trash, for
           instance. Some people believe that coffee grounds have a
           role, but that's inconclusive. At any rate, it is usually
           the kitchen trash that catches the eye of the Early
           Dawning infant. Many times the parent does not notice the
           child in her arms leaning in the direction of the trash.

                If you do notice this leaning, take a look at your
           baby's eyes. In the Early Dawning infant there will be a
           gleam of what could be called delight. Quite often, if
           the baby is four or five months old and is sitting in a
           walker, he may take a step or two in the direction of
           your garbage. In advanced infants, they may even reach
           the trash and try to touch it during the Early Dawning
           period. The difference between this period and the second
           period (Intermediate Dawning), is that the baby CAN be
           removed from the trash area and distracted with a toy or
           the family cat, etc.

                Level Two: Intermediate Dawning. During this period,
           the baby, when left on its own, will ALWAYS go in the
           direction of the trash. He will not become upset when you
           remove him (docility is part of the preconscious state
           from which he is dawning) and he will not complain, but
           he will automatically turn again in the direction of the
           trash and will try to go in that direction if there are
           no barriers preventing him.

                The consciousness he has attained in Level One gives
           him increased mobility so that he can more easily and
           accurately reach the trash. During this period, if the
           baby reaches a barrier, he will stand gazing at the trash
           that is no longer within his reach. If you pick him up to
           remove him from the area, his head will turn and his gaze
           will remain focused on the trash until the trash is out
           of his line of vision. If you don't remove your baby from
           the trash he will tentatively reach for and touch the
           trash. Usually this is accompanied by a radiant smile.
           Actually touching the trash seems to be necessary to
           complete Level Two and go on to Level Three.

                Level Three: Acute Dawning. At this level the infant
           is focused on the trash with an increasing intensity. He
           will reach the trash despite barriers. His increased
           consciousness teaches him many ways of reaching his goal.

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           When moved away from the desired area, he will crawl
           between your legs, around the barriers you put up, and
           may even crawl over something which you put in his way.
           He may hurt himself trying to reach the trash.

                If removed and prevented from accomplishing his
           desire, he will cry. If left alone, he will reach the
           trash, pull himself up to stand by the trash basket and
           grab handfuls of anything he can reach. We haven't found
           that there is a particular thing that babies like the
           best in the trash. They seem to love everything in the
           basket equally. Some researchers say that the more
           advanced baby seems attracted to the older items in the
           trash.

                This level always includes eating the trash. It has
           not been determined, but there may be substances in the
           trash necessary for the baby's general health. Many times
           the baby will pull out an amount of trash, then sit down
           and play with it. This "play" includes the aforesaid
           eating, spreading particles and substances of mixed
           origin on his body, (usually the head area), and carrying
           some large bits of the trash around with him. If the baby
           is in a walker, these bits can be carried on the walker
           tray or in his hand, but most babies prefer to carry
           these bits of trash in their mouths.

                Level Four: The Dawning Peak. During this period the
           baby will be drawn toward any trash in the house. He
           seems to be interested in little else. Trash becomes his
           main goal in life. Most mothers, have, by this time,
           found a way to secure the kitchen trash in such a way
           that the baby cannot reach it, usually on the kitchen
           table or the counter beside the stove. There is the
           possibility that whatever substance it is that babies
           need (trace minerals, perhaps) which the trash contains,
           is also needed by adults and that this is nature's way of
           making sure that we get some, too.

                You will no longer see a look of overwhelming joy on
           the face of your baby while engaging in trash "play".
           This will be replaced by a look of serious and deep
           concentration. This level is marked by such a fixation
           with trash that many parents try putting their daily
           trash in the child's toy box and putting toys in the
           trash baskets. This works only until the baby realizes
           the consistency change (probably because nothing comes
           off into his mouth which he can carry around).

                Level Five: Post Dawning. This is an assimilation
           period during which the baby will seemingly lose his
           interest in trash, pretending interest in books on
           shelves, newspapers, magazines, etc. However, their newly
           attained consciousness has given them insight into their
           parents' thoughts to some degree, and they know that if

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           they are no longer interested in the kitchen trash, you
           will take it off the kitchen table and put it back on the
           floor. If left unattended, the baby will carefully go
           back to the trash and engage in trash "play" as long he
           can, even occasionally looking to see if you notice him.
           If you speak to the baby he will squeal and sometimes
           "talk" to you too, proving that consciousness has dawned
           in your baby, exhibiting itself in producing and
           understanding speech.

                You can test your baby by waiting for a time when
           you see him carrying a bit of trash in his mouth. Say to
           your baby, "What have you got in your mouth, young man
           (or lady)?" If the baby turns around and starts to run
           away from you, he has definitely reached consciousness
           and his interest in trash will soon be waning ... usually
           by the end of the fourth grade.

                         ...........................................
                                  Claire Bowles and her husband John
                          live in Oklahoma with their four children.
                           She is a freelance writer and a gardener.



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                                     Leah
                                    ......

                                                  by Olga S. Hardman


                Because I want you to know her as I did, let me tell
           you about Leah. She was my mother and the most valued
           gift I have ever been given.

                Leah was heavy, about 210 or 220 pounds. There were
           times when I was ashamed of her weight and even of her
           misuse of the English language. Since she had only gone
           to the eighth grade, not uncommon for girls in 1909, she
           sometimes mixed up tenses and often confused the number
           of subject and verb. Isn't it interesting that I can be
           critical of one who had the command of 2 languages,
           French, as well as English, when I can only use one
           myself?

                I hated those old grandmother shoes she always wore.
           They were always black, laced-up oxfords, with 1 1/2 inch
           heels, like the shoes old-fashioned nuns used to wear. I
           can still smell the leather as I did when I went to
           retrieve them for her from one floor of the house or the
           other.

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                I was always proud of the fact that my mother was an
           excellent cook. Everyone who visited our house always
           gravitated to Leah's kitchen where she might be baking
           bread, making galettes, soaking a rabbit in wine for
           tomorrow's dinner, or baking French tarts.

                My mother really enjoyed life. She loved to dance
           and laugh. After she came back from Puerto Rico where she
           visited Mary Anne, her grand-niece whom she adored, she
           told me how much she loved Puerto Rico. She loved it
           mostly because the people were happy, singing, laughing
           and gregarious.

                Despite her weight, Leah was light on her feet.
           Since my father did not dance, I never saw my parents
           dance together. One day, though, in the middle of our
           kitchen floor, I saw a gentleman friend who was visiting
           us grab my mother and swing her around the kitchen floor.
           That day I experienced my first real confrontation with
           jealousy. I was absolutely devastated to see another
           man's arms around my mother. I cried bitterly.

                Around the house, my mother always wore cotton print
           house dresses with a large apron covering the front.
           Sometimes she made those aprons from feed sacks. It was
           common for animal feed to come in large printed cotton
           sacks which were suitable for fashioning into useful
           items like dresses, skirts, aprons, tea towels, etc.
           Since my father kept a coop full of chickens for eggs and
           meat for the table, we sometimes had available sacks for
           sewing.

                Every day at 2:00 p.m., Leah went upstairs to have
           her bath and put on a clean house dress and apron before
           my father returned from work. On some afternoons, she and
           her neighborhood friends, Mary Moine, Lucy Deems, and
           Rosie Malfregeot, had "tea parties" at each others homes.
           We all knew that at the tea parties the beverage of
           choice would be freshly-brewed hot coffee with good fresh
           cream and some kind of French tart or cookie. On very
           special occasions, especially later in their lives, the
           "girl friends" might even have a little glass of wine,
           usually Mogan David, with their treats.

                Later in the day, when Leah started dinner, the
           cooking odors of onions, garlic, thyme and bayleaf as
           they permeated beef and veal stews, meat loaf, beef
           roast, pork and lamb chops, roast pork and even venison
           sometimes, were almost more than I could bear. I would
           get so hungry it was hard to wait until dinner was ready.

                But my sister and I were never allowed to sit down
           to dinner until my father came to the table. He always
           responded promptly to the call, but it always seemed an


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           eternity to me. My mother taught us respect for our
           father in many subtle ways.

                Leah was often the neighborhood nurse. The story is
           told of her that during the "big flu epidemic of 1918"
           she was the only one who never contracted the flu,
           despite the fact that she cared for all the flu victims
           in the neighborhood. It seems she wore a large clove of
           garlic on a string around her neck and was convinced that
           that had saved her from the fate of her friends and
           neighbors. Probably the garlic around her neck did
           nothing to protect her, but her belief in its efficacy
           might have.

                She was still caring for the sick and bereaved 40
           years later: she was the one who sat with Mrs. Morris,
           the neighbor across the street, as she lay dying in her
           bed; she bathed the new Leuliette baby for six weeks
           because his mother was too nervous to do so; she went to
           Rosie Malfregeot's house every day to feed and bathe her
           during her last illness; she made pots and pots of all
           kinds of soups for people who had a particular liking for
           a certain kind; and she even lanced a boil after creating
           a vacuum in a coke bottle and applying it to the cheek of
           my youngest son. It was she who baby sat with the little
           retarded girl down the street when her mother could get
           no one else to sit with her. In fact, Laurie Ann and Leah
           had become quite good friends by the time Laurie had to
           be institutionalized.

                Although she was not overtly religious, my mother
           was intensely spiritual and compassionate. She was not
           baptized into the Christian faith until she was 35 years
           old. This was not because her parents were irreligious,
           but rather because the rest of her baptized siblings had
           been born in France where priests and Catholic churches
           were plentiful and she was born in Arnold, Pennsylvania
           where there were no Catholic churches at the time. The
           family's move to Clarksburg, WV made access to Catholic
           clergy even more remote. So it was that my mother was not
           baptized until 1936, at St. James Church in Clarksburg.
           It was just after her baptism that my mother and father
           were married in a sacramental marriage in the church. My
           sister and I served as witnesses to my parents official
           marriage. I remember well that we were on our way to the
           grocery store and we stopped off at the church on our
           way, to get our parents properly married "in the church."

                I believe my mother must have been innately
           spiritual because she taught me many prayers of praise
           and thanks years before she herself was baptized and
           began to officially practice her faith. As I pull up the
           bed covers on a cold, snowy night, I can still hear my
           mother say, as she tucked me into my warm bed, "Oh,
           honey, aren't we fortunate to have a nice warm house to

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           live in." To this day, I think of those who are cold
           every time I turn up the furnace or pull up the
           bedclothes. Leah's attitude was truly one of gratitude.

                While I was still a pre-school child in the early
           30's, many people were still suffering from the "great
           depression." Many times, I watched through the screen
           door as my mother served food to a poor beggar and
           sometimes his children as well. There were always
           sandwiches and cold drinks. Never did I hear my mother
           refuse a request for food or drink. I never saw her give
           money, but she always gave an ample quantity of delicious
           food and drink. As a matter of fact, her now grown-up
           paper boy told me just the other day how much he loved my
           mother. It seems that when he delivered the paper on hot
           summer afternoons, she always sat him down in a chair on
           the porch and served him a glass of iced tea or lemonade.

                Isn't life filled with irony? Just imagine how I
           felt when my mother's hefty 220 pound frame shrank to
           less than 80 pounds as she lay dying from pancreatic
           cancer. She was an early experimental patient for
           hyper-alimentation. She had been unable to eat or drink
           anything for 5 months before her death. But by allowing
           scientific experimentation with her ailing body, she
           helped to make "hyper-al" commonplace. Leah continues to
           "feed the hungry."

                It is 21 years after Leah's death and my youngest
           son called me from 2000 miles away and said, "Boy, Mom, I
           sure miss grandma, don't you?"

                "Indeed I do, son. The memory of her and all I
           learned from her are among my greatest treasures."

                           .........................................
                           Olga S. Hardman is a writer and a retired
                      music supervisor for the largest school system
                    in Central West Virginia. She currently operates
                          her own music studio for a select group of
                                  piano, voice and solfege students.
                                      Email: fsa00180@mail.wvnet.edu




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                           The Movie Mom's Guide to
                           Family Movies and Videos
                          ..........................

                                                       by Nell Minow


                Reviews for parents of the best of current films and
           old movies available on video and cable, by Nell Minow,
           author, film critic, and mother. Reviews will be updated
           each week with recommendations and replies to questions
           about movies on special topics, suitability of particular
           movies for children, and movie trivia--try to stump me!
           I'd also love your suggestions for a new book on movies
           for families. The best kids' comments I receive will be
           published. The Movie Mom (TM)

           RECOMMENDED
           ***********

           Fly Away Home
           .............

           "Fly Away Home" - Carroll Ballard (1996) PG, 8 and up

                Amy, a 13-year-old girl from New Zealand (Anna
           Paquin), wakes up in a hospital bed after an automobile
           accident to see her father, Tom (Jeff Daniels), whom she
           barely knows. Her mother was killed in the crash, and she
           must go back with him to his remote farm in Canada. He is
           an eccentric sculptor and inventor, preoccupied with his
           work and unsure of how to try to comfort her. Amy does
           not want to be comforted, and wanders silently through
           the marshes.

                When developers illegally mowing down the marsh kill
           a goose, Amy finds the eggs she left behind, and begins
           to resolve her loss by mothering the goslings. Since she
           is the first thing they see when they hatch, they
           "imprint" her, and think of her as their mother,
           following her everywhere, even into the shower. The local
           authorities insist that their wings be clipped, since
           without their mother they cannot learn to migrate, and
           will cause problems for the community when they try to
           fly. But Amy and her father will not allow the geese to
           be impaired.

                Tom devises a way for Amy to play the role of
           "Mother Goose" in teaching the geese to migrate, by
           learning to fly herself, in an ultralight plane, and
           leading them south. With Tom's brother (Terry Kinney) and
           girlfriend (Dana Delany), they plot a course to a wetland
           preserve that is scheduled to be developed unless geese
           arrive by November 1. As they work together, Amy finds a

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           way to begin to heal her loss of her mother and her
           relationship with Tom.

                This is a thrilling adventure, exquisitely told, by
           the same director and photographer who made "The Black
           Stallion". Ballard has the patience to let the story tell
           itself, and the quiet moments are breathtakingly
           beautiful and heartbreakingly touching. PARENTAL NOTE:
           There is one profanity in the movie, demanded by the
           studio, who insisted that the movie must have a PG rating
           so that it would not scare off school-age kids. Of more
           concern to many parents will be the nose ring Tom allows
           Amy to have.

                     ...............................................
                             The Movie Mom's Guide is on the web at:
                     http://pages.prodigy.com/moviemom/moviemom.html
                            "Movie Mom" is a trademark of Nell Minow
                                    All material (C) 1996 Nell Minow
                                                Email: nellm@aol.com



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                              - HeartQuestions -
                         Questions & Reflections about
                      Marriage, Parenting & Family Issues
                     -------------------------------------


                          An Unruly 4 Year Old Nephew
                         .............................

                                                   by Peter F. Brown


           DEAR PETER:

                I have a concern about my 4 year old nephew which
           also has created problems with my son whenever we all get
           together as a family. I have a 2 year old, my brother
           with the 4 year old also has a 2 year old boy and my
           other brother has a 3 year old girl. Of course I would
           expect some confusion when you get four little ones
           together all at the same time but it is really wild when
           we get together.

                My 4 year old nephew is out of control a lot of the
           time, jumping on furniture, throwing things, screaming at
           the top of his lungs. My 2 year old will imitate him, at
           times, and when I discipline my child, the 4 year old's
           mother will make a comment about how unruly my son is. I

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           haven't said anything to her because I don't know what to
           say. On one hand, yes my son has done something that I
           don't approve of, but on the other hand he is imitating
           her son who of course was allowed the same behavior. All
           of this is compounded by my very strong feeling that my
           nephew has some sort of disability which is being
           ignored. These are the signs that I have been observing:

                1. I can't carry on a conversation with him. I get
           down to eye level and try to talk to him about something
           that he is playing with or some interest that one of his
           parents has mentioned. I can sometimes get him to respond
           with a comment but he does not converse with me. At times
           he will frantically rub his face with his hands and just
           repeat something that I have said over and over.

                2. I can't get eye contact with him -- however I'm
           not sure, but I think I see him looking directly in the
           eyes of his cousins, sometimes.

                3. He is very smart, which should not be a concern,
           but this is a child who can't (or won't?) answer a simple
           question, but who can spell "xylophone".

                I don't know what to do about this, it is getting to
           the point where I dread getting together with the family
           and I feel guilty about the fact that I see the problem
           as being my nephew who I do love very much and am very
           concerned about. Am I over reacting, do you think that
           his behaviors are within the range of what is considered
           normal and things will even out eventually, or what? I
           haven't said anything to his parents, his mom is always
           telling everyone how wonderful he is and compares him to
           the neighbors' children and the children in his nursery
           school. His dad has been known to get embarrassed about
           his behavior to the point of losing his cool, I get the
           feeling he thinks his children should be perfect. I could
           use some good advise. Thanks!

           Denise


           DEAR DENISE:

                It seems that you have two issues to contend with:
           how to help your four year old nephew and how to deal
           with your nephew's influence on your son.

                I'm not a medical professional or a psychiatrist, so
           I can't give you that level of professional advice about
           your nephew. If he really does have a serious disability
           then of course his parents should seek professional help.
           On the other hand, I tend to react strongly when I hear
           more and more parents stating that their children's
           errant behavior is because of a disability or something

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           like Attention Deficit Disorder. I personally believe
           that parents need to think twice about this, and consider
           instead that the best medicines for their children are
           strong doses of unconditional parental love and very
           clear training about unselfish and loving behavior. I
           refer you to a movie and book called "Son-Rise", a true
           story by Barry Kaufman about his autistic son who was
           cured by his parents' love.

                Giving a child enough love so that he feels secure
           goes all the way back to fundamental issues such as the
           mother breastfeeding the child, and having the child
           sleep next to the mother when he's young (NOT in a crib
           in a dark room down the hall with the door shut.) It also
           means having both the father and the mother hold and hug
           the child thousands of times as he's growing up, kissing
           him on the cheek every day, and looking deep into the
           child's eyes with warm and steady love emanating from the
           parents' eyes. It means telling the child, "I love you",
           and meaning every word of it.

                It also means that the husband and wife need to love
           each other, so that they provide a peaceful and secure
           home for the child. I know a number of children who's
           parents don't get along. Those children seem to be more
           and more erratic and hyper (i.e. "disturbed") the more
           that their parents fight and squabble.

                Other issues that can profoundly influence the child
           in a detrimental way are whether or not the child spends
           all his time in day care centers (studies are showing
           that such children don't grow very well) and whether or
           not the child's school experience is positive or negative
           (because of peers or the school system itself.)

                Finally, I think parents often don't pay enough
           attention to a vital ingredient in their child's
           upbringing. Children need to be taught how to love others
           and need to be taught about behaving in a kind,
           honorable, truthful and unselfish manner. If we don't
           teach them, where will they learn? It gets progressively
           worse as the years pass, so that finally, we've got an
           adult who doesn't care about others, and acts as he
           wishes. Teaching a child to become a loving person
           requires the elements of experience, example, concept and
           practice. How well are your nephew's parents doing in
           that regard? Are they admitting that they may need to
           improve? Before I took my child to a psychiatrist, I'd do
           some serious self examination on this point. And frankly,
           don't we all need to improve? I know that I do.

                About your nephew's influence on your son... that's
           a tough one, because you're dealing with family.
           Otherwise you might just decide to not have your son play
           with the other child. Because it's your family, I would

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           consider being honest -- because if families aren't
           honest, what are we left with? Perhaps you can talk with
           your nephew's parents about these topics. (Remember that
           it's extremely important to be very diplomatic.) I wish
           you all the best in this difficult situation!

            ........................................................
                           Peter F. Brown is the author of the book,
                           "Striving for Parental Love" and lives in
                      Virginia Beach, VA with his wife Kim and their
                   four children, Tymon, Thea Grace, Ranin and Tadin

                   HeartQuestions is published as a weekly column on
                                   The HeartThread Resource Page at:
                                            "http://futurerealm.com"
                                   Email: peterbrown@futurerealm.com



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                              Yub Makes Me Happy
                             ....................

                                                 by Kim Korman Brown

                One day when I came home from an afternoon of doing
           errands, my husband greeted me with the news that our
           son, Tadin, had learned a new sentence. Tadin just turned
           three in October, but didn't really start speaking until
           six months ago. He's going full throttle now, talking and
           singing about everything constantly. He looks in the
           mirror and says, "Dat me? Dat me aw day?" (Is that me all
           day?)

                When his diaper needs changing he comes to me and
           says, "I dot one boop." (I got one poop.) (Which, of
           course, is better than having many.)

                He trots up to Peter or me and asks, "What are you
           do-ning, Mommy? Where are you go-ning, Daddy?"

                Sometimes I think I don't want my kids to learn to
           speak properly (now don't jump on me, all you diction
           coaches and anti-babytalk people!) because they sound so
           cute mispronouncing everything. When I tickle a toddler
           and he squeals, "Top it! Top it!", I can't top myself.

                The new sentence he learned is a great one. Tadin
           smiled up at me and said, "Yub -- make -- me -- happy!" I
           gave Peter a quizzical look and asked him what he said.
           Tymon blurted out, "He said, love makes me happy!"

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                How sweet! Peter said that Tadin came in the office
           for a hug and a kiss and Peter asked him, "Do you like
           true love?"

                Tadin said, "Yes."

                Peter said, "Why?"

                Tadin said, "I dunno."

                Peter said, "You like true love because it makes you
           happy. Say: "Love makes me happy.""

                "Yub -- make -- me-- happy!"

                Now he's really getting into giving that response.
           We ask him everyday if he likes true love and he stumbles
           midway into the sentence: "MAKE? ME? HAPPY?" (Kind of a
           cross between Alfred E. Neuman's, "What, me worry?", and
           Clint Eastwood's "Make my day.") It warms the heart.

                During Tadin's recent, third birthday party, he was
           truly thrilled. His consciousness grasped all the fuss
           being made over him. He beamed at our family, saying,
           "You dot me a gake and a doy?" (You got me a cake and a
           toy?") He also learned the song, "Happy Birthday to You".
           Now he sings it spontaneously as we're driving somewhere,
           or as he is playing with toys. His version goes:

                "Happy Buttday tew yew, Happy Buttday tew yew, Happy
           Buttday to Mommy, Happy Buttday tew yew..."

                Peter and I prompt him, "It's birth day, honey. Say,
           BIRTH day."

                "Buttday."

                "Well, he'll get it one of these days," Peter says,
           reassuring me.

                We rented the movie, "The Three Ninjas", which
           features three little boys who call themselves by the
           nicknames, Rocky, Colt and Tum Tum. Tadin, Ranin and
           Tymon became enamored with this movie, and started
           calling themselves by the Ninja's nicknames. Tadin began
           announcing, "I Dum Dum!"

                "You mean, Tum Tum!"

                "Yeah. I Dum Dum!"

                "He'll get it one of these days."

                Our kids take baths two at a time usually (we have
           four.) We were taking stock of the troops a few nights

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           ago and Peter hollered, "Tymon, are you in the bathtub?"

                Then we heard Tadin's little voice hollering back,
           "We am, Daddy, we am!"

                I wanted to run in there and squeeze his chubby
           cheeks. How could anyone live without being around
           children? How can anyone live with children and not melt
           a hundred times a day from all the adorable things they
           do? It reminds me of a Chinese love poem I once read
           called, "A Small Girl". The line which stands out in my
           mind most, reads:

                "She walks so nicely, she makes people die of love."

                Which in essence, is a lot like: "Love makes me
           happy."

                             .......................................
                             Kim Korman Brown is a writer and a Mom,
                                  living in Virginia Beach, Virginia
                                     Email: kimbrown@futurerealm.com


































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