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     Vol. 1, No. 6                                          June 30, 1996


       "To promote and encourage the 'thread' of unselfish heart and love
        that invisibly connects husbands and wives, parents and children,
                                               and brothers and sisters."
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           From the Editor
           ...............

                I remember reading an article in the Richmond
           Times-Dispatch last year that alleged that in ten years
           Virginia would see a crime wave unprecedented in our
           local history. It also inferred that other states would
           have similar problems.

                The reason: today's children, in the eight to ten
           year old range, would be coming into adulthood about that
           time. The writer predicted that unless dramatic steps
           were taken to imbue our current crop of youth with a
           heightened sense of morals and values, many of them would
           grow into adults with a predilection for crime.

                Serious words, to be sure. It hasn't happened yet,
           though, and I believe that we can turn things around --
           if we act now. Imparting ethics to a whole generation of
           children is such a gigantic task that it might even seem
           impossible. Since throwing in the towel isn't an option,
           what are some of the possibilities in front of us? There
           are many group-oriented strategies that will surely prove
           very effective, but one particular method stands out from
           the rest.

                Ultimately, if each set of parents commit themselves
           to the "education of heart" of their children, their
           children will respond and grow in the right direction.
           This requires that the parents not only love and educate
           the children, but truly love each other. This issue of
           the HTJ highlights ways to increase and revive the love
           between husband and wife -- and then parents and
           children. As the proverb says, "A long journey starts
           with a single step." May we all have great victory in our
           families!

                                               Peter F. Brown
                                               Editor & Publisher


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                               TABLE OF CONTENTS


           * From the Editor, Peter F. Brown ......................1


           * The Significance of Your Spouse,
             by Betsy D. Jones ....................................5


           * Learning to Be Close,
             by Victoria Clevenger.................................8


           * Teaching Children About the Creation,
             by Mim Kohn .........................................11


           * Dad,
             by Richard R. Radtke ................................14


           * What Goes Into the Mouth ... and What Doesn't!
             by Claire Bowles ....................................15


           * The Movie Mom's Guide to Movies
             and Videos for Families, by Nell Minow ..............18
             (Review of The Hunchback of Notre Dame)


           * HeartQuestions / Questions & Reflections
             about Marriage, Parenting & Family Issues
             by Peter F. Brown ...................................20
             [Communication: The Conduit for
                             True Love in Marriage]


           * A Legacy of Love, by Kim Korman Brown ...............24


           * The HeartThread Resource Guide:
             Resources for Couples, Parents & Families ...........28






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                        The Significance of Your Spouse
                       .................................

                                                   by Betsy D. Jones

                [Editor's Note: This is an edited version of a talk
           that Ms. Jones gave at a marriage seminar.]

                An aspect of our spouse that is very important, is
           that through our relationship with our spouse, we have an
           opportunity to heal ourselves, and make ourselves whole.
           There is a current book out on the wisdom of Rabbi
           Schneerson, called "Towards a Meaningful Life". He talks
           about marriage and childhood and death. One point he
           makes is that the Hebrew word for man and woman both
           contain the word "fire." He says that men and women,
           without God, are like two fires that will consume each
           other.

                In my own family, my parents went to church on
           Sunday, but at our home, there was often disunity. That
           disunity would keep the spirit of God out. Disunity
           causes damage in the family. I can remember that my first
           exposure to marriage counseling came in high school, when
           I saw my mother crying in the basement. I went downstairs
           and said, "Why are you crying?" She said, "Because your
           father has a problem with drinking." I realized that I
           had to take care of my parents, so I called for a family
           meeting, and tried to help them talk about the problem
           with each other, rather than separately. Part of my
           father's problem was also related to my mother, perhaps
           based on some things she used to say to him, or feel. She
           had no awareness of how she played into this.

                This really affected me in some way. When I met my
           husband, I think I brought a tendency from my family to
           make me feel resentment toward my husband. My husband
           came from a family where his father left when he was five
           years old, so he also had the pain of a broken family.
           Because of that, he sometimes needed distance in our
           relationship. He didn't come from a very close family. I
           came from a closer family. I misunderstood his need for
           distance, and sometimes I would feel angry with him for
           needing distance. I wanted my husband to want a closer
           family unit like I did, and he wanted to have a little
           more distance in our family. That was what he was
           comfortable with.

                The second part of the significance of your mate is
           that basically, we are there to re-parent our mates, to
           heal our mates of whatever happened in their childhood.
           Sometimes you have to think about your mate as your
           parent, or as your brother or sister, or sometimes as
           your child. In most people, there is an adult part, a

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           brother or sister part, and then there is the child part.
           A problem may occur if, for example, the wife wants to
           cry, and she's asking her husband, "Can you be my parent
           right now?" Sometimes the husband has to realize, "My
           wife feels like a child right now. I have to take care of
           her and be like a parent to her."

                It's very important to be able to recognize when
           your spouse is in need of a parent. There can be a
           problem if you get both people at the same time, needing
           a parent. Then you get into the problem of, who's going
           to budge? You both may be upset; you both may need
           someone to listen to you.

                If you take time to be the other person's parent,
           and are willing to be the other person's parent, then
           they can start to grow. And even if for one year, two
           years, or three years, you feel you are always the
           parent, then you have to believe in the principle of
           growth: that over time, that part of your spouse will
           grow and develop. The most beautiful thing is to see
           couples who can be flexible along the way. They can be
           flexible and realize that although each may have need of
           a parent, their spouse is so important that they had
           better take care of their spouse. This is a really
           important point.

                The third point I'd like to talk about is the value
           of our spouse in maturing our personality. We need our
           spouse to mature our personality. Some people think that
           if I'm incompatible with my mate, then I had better go
           look for another mate. There are some common myths that
           many books describe about marriage. One myth says that if
           spouses are compatible, good marriages simply happen
           spontaneously and require little effort. Because people
           think that is true, then when they realize that they
           don't get along with their spouse, they think that the
           answer is to go out and find someone else. But actually
           the most important thing is that there is some value in
           not getting along. It's actually an opportunity for
           growth.

                There are many authors who have written about this.
           One very current author is Harville Hendrix, who has
           written a book, "Getting the Love You Want". He talks
           about the fact that because there is this
           incompatibility, people find that after romantic love
           goes away, a little bit, they feel, "I'm not sure this
           person exactly fits me." But that's actually good,
           because then you have to stretch yourself.

                Sometimes we make a big thing of incompatibility.
           You may think, "This person sees things 100%
           differently." My husband and I see everything
           differently, and now after 25 years, I'm so grateful that

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           he always sees things differently. I am a different
           person now because I've had such a husband. I have had to
           grow, I have had to stretch to make him happy. Now I'm so
           grateful for these differences.

                It often feels like we are losing something, like we
           are giving up our personality. My husband asked me to be
           more quiet, when we were first married. Before I was
           married, people used to say they liked my personality.
           After our marriage, my husband was telling me to be more
           quiet. This was something very different from what I had
           expected.

                It seems to boil down basically to a paradigm shift.
           I think most of us go into marriage thinking that we are
           going to meet the person who will make us happy. Instead,
           we have to think that marriage is really a journey of
           commitment to the other person: to heal and serve the
           other person. It requires a shift in our thinking. If we
           realize that, we can be much happier in our marriages.

                I got so upset once in the beginning of our
           marriage, when I was sharing my pain, and my husband had
           his hand on the door, ready to get out of the car, and he
           said, "Are you finished?" I said "No!" We had to learn
           that when he's in pain, I need to listen, I need to
           comfort him, I need to hold him. And when I'm in pain,
           it's the same way. You need to hold each other and
           comfort each other, just like a child. Eventually the
           crying stops, and the child feels so secure in your love.
           We have to help our spouses feel this.

                If you think for one minute that you can love your
           children as a parent without loving your spouse -- this
           is the biggest mistake many people make. They have an
           "incompatibility". So they decide that it's O.K. to be
           cold to their spouse. "As long as I can love my
           children." That's like feeding the children poisoned
           milk. Father Hesberg, a Catholic priest, once said, "The
           best thing a man can do for his son is to love that boy's
           mother."

                Through our love for each other we can find the
           union of love, and create an atmosphere for our children
           to feel secure and to grow in a very healthy way. We are
           doing this to set a legacy of true love for our children.
           The example of our working out our marriages is the most
           powerful tool we have.

                ....................................................
                          Betsy D. Jones has a Masters in Education,
                         in the area of Psychiatric Nursing, and has
                   been a professional marriage and family counselor
                for over twenty years. She and her husband have five
                             children, and live in upstate New York.

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                             Learning to Be Close
                            ......................

                                               by Victoria Clevenger

                Once a group of us were sharing what our idea of
           heaven was. We each had some sort of idealistic vision,
           but I remember what a philosophy professor from Germany
           said: "Heaven is sitting around and laughing with a group
           of friends." At the time I thought that was rather
           superficial and even limited. However, more and more I
           see the "in-touch-with-self-and-the-momentness" behind
           what he said.

                Barry Kaufman (author of "Son-Rise" and "Happiness
           Is A Choice") wrote another beautiful book called "To
           Love is to Be Happy With". What a simple way to describe
           nourishing, loving closeness.

                But if much of our life experience has taught us to
           be closed instead of close, we often have to humbly learn
           how to create true and joyful intimacy with others -- and
           with our own best self. My relationship with my husband
           improved a quantum leap when I finally began to allow
           myself to learn from him, to practice what Jon Townsend,
           an international conflict mediator, calls "The Platinum
           Rule": Do unto others as *they* would have you do unto
           them.

                In my work trying to help teens and preteens make
           healthy choices, a bottom line issue is the longing for
           emotional intimacy. We all need it, but it's not easy to
           achieve. We can learn though.

                A friend of mine, Gertrud Yasutake, sent me this
           quote from "Raising Self-Reliant Children in a
           Self-Indulgent World", by H.Stephen Glenn and Jane
           Nelson: "In times of change, learners inherit the earth,
           while the learned find themselves beautifully equipped to
           deal with a world that no longer exists.--Eric Hoffer."

                Learning is a profound ability and joy. For me it's
           the true entertainment, beside which other more passive
           activities seem like junk food. It's growth. It requires
           a conscious engaged mind, however, and too often we seem
           to be on automatic pilot, with controls that may have
           been set generations ago.

                Learning and the change that can result also require
           courage. Just as in some inner city neighborhoods there
           is intense peer pressure against kids doing well in
           school, similarly, many of us exist in social and
           cultural environs that don't encourage us to rise above
           the mediocrity around us.

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                I'd like to share some wonderful comments from
           clinical psychologist, Dr. George Pransky. Though he
           specifically is advising parents on how to relate with
           their kids, his insight is universally applicable. His
           basic assumption is that we all innately have healthy
           functioning available to us; we can always access what he
           calls our "commonsense", our inner wisdom and creativity,
           *if* we are in what he calls a higher, responsive state
           of mind vs. a lower or reactive state or mood.

                He feels that giving children a warm, forgiving,
           lighthearted environment is essential. In such an
           environment, the parent and child have close rapport, the
           child tends to feel secure and happy, and, like a plant
           with plenty of light, warmth, and nutrients, the child
           naturally grows to be healthy and happy.

                He says our healthy state of mind often becomes
           increasingly contaminated as we grow older and we may
           even lose touch with it. Then we operate on the lower
           levels of conflict and stress -- and devote our time and
           energy to coping with those, rather than realizing that
           the healthy state is within our reach if we just relax
           and let go of our contaminated thinking. When in that
           higher state, we naturally do things well, and don't need
           parenting "strategies." Our "heart is in the right
           place", so to speak.

                Kids are often more in touch with this innate wisdom
           and creativity, and Dr. Pransky says the best way to help
           our children become self-reliant is to encourage them to
           connect with and practice this common sense. He advises
           us to parent from a deep trust that the child wants to be
           good, and if s/he is "misbehaving," it is because
           something needs to be learned - either by the child or by
           us, or both.

                     "So when you listen to kids, you can
                respect their commonsense, even though they
                don't have the experience you do and aren't the
                boss. This can lead you to a higher place
                possibly, or at least to a meeting of the minds
                with your kids, and out of that can come
                something better than you've already conceived of.

                     The wiser people are, the more respect
                they have for their kids, and in turn, the
                better is their rapport, the more they learn
                from their kids, the higher their kids'
                self-esteem, and the greater the kids' ability
                to use that commonsense. If you don't listen to
                them because you "know better" and you don't
                let them practice their commonsense and
                rapport, then you're leading them away from it
                and they'll grow farther away from it like you are.

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                     Inside of everything your kid, or anyone,
                says, there will be a grain of truth, and you
                have to listen until that grain of truth comes
                out and you can say, "Oh yeah, I can relate to
                that; I don't agree with it, but I can imagine
                a reasonable person saying that." That's when
                you respect it. Every interaction you have,
                ideally, you get to that point of respect.

                     Our state of mind affects the quality of
                our thinking. The important thing to remember
                is that if you clear your mind, you will have a
                healthy state of mind. The reactive state of
                mind comes from actively contaminating your
                healthy state of mind."

                His description of three levels of parenting
           relationships apply to all relationships:

                     "The lowest level is where there's
                conflict, adversariness between parents and
                child; everybody's looking out for their own
                interests, and there's no meeting ground of
                commonsense or principle, just a tug of war.
                This reality has a lot of anger, resentment,
                and bitterness toward each other. Kids who grow
                up on this level have a chip on their shoulder,
                problems with authority, and low self-esteem,
                etc.

                     Second is the reality of stress. This
                isn't conflict. This is families that are
                basically getting along and improving over
                time, but it's stressful...Instead of giving
                others the benefit of the doubt, there's a
                little suspicion on people's parts. These
                families tend to try various "parenting
                strategies," but often these just muddle things
                up."

                The highest level, of warm rapport and closeness,
           sounds something like what the German professor called
           heaven:

                     "At this level, there's a certain feeling
                of understanding and benefit of the doubt in
                the mentality of all parties, so all are
                capable of getting a lot out of each
                interaction. People don't struggle because when
                they see their mind is filled with a lot of
                ambivalence, they wait for their mind to clear
                so they can operate from a higher state of
                mind. Then people spend their time enjoying and
                learning from each other, having a good time,
                kidding, pipe dreaming and laughing, because

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                they don't have to spend time dealing with the
                fruits of the lower states.

                     The best indicator of how you are doing as
                a parent is how much enjoyment you're getting
                from being a parent. Enjoying it means you are
                close to your kids, and they have self-esteem
                because they see themselves as enjoyable
                instead of a hassle. When you are laughing,
                it's easier to have access to your commonsense.
                That's why a lot of people who are excellent
                parents will say it's really easy.

                     This common sense wisdom is available in
                everyone, and when accessed, it's one of the
                most powerful forces in the human experience."*

                Learning to be close to others and to our own truest
           self requires humility and courage. It requires going
           beyond an adversarial approach -- "I'm right/you're
           wrong" -- and recognizing that all of us are innately
           precious people.

                                * "The Commonsense Parenting Series"
                                      George S. Pransky, MFCC, Ph.D.
                    PO Box 498, La Conner, WA 98257, (206) 466-5200.

                                        Reprinted by permission from
                                   "Heartwing" Autumn/Winter '94/'95
                    ................................................
                   Victoria Clevenger is the Editor and Publisher of
                          "HeartWing", a family oriented newsletter.
                         You can email her at "hrtwing@pacifier.com,
                or write to: 12715 NE 7th Place, Vancouver, WA 98684


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                     Teaching Children About the Creation
                    ......................................

                                                         by Mim Kohn

                It was many years ago, and I was working with
           preschoolers (between 3 and 6 years old) in a day care
           center in Orange, New Jersey. It was autumn, and we took
           lots of walks together because I loved being out of the
           building on crisp autumn days. We'd walk along, singing
           our favorite songs (or perhaps my favorite songs!),
           kicking up dried fallen leaves, and I began picking up
           maple seed pods, the kind with wings, and sticking them
           on my nose. (The real fun of being with children is that
           you can laugh and play and enjoy yourself - like you

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           probably haven't done since you were a child!) The
           children, of course, all started copying me, and soon we
           were all wearing and blowing the maple wings all over the
           place. I showed the kids the seeds inside the "wings" and
           then we became fascinated with how seeds travel - the
           magical way that God works to make sure that His creation
           works also.

                I got a book out of the library about how seeds
           travel, and we were captivated by the hitchhikers (the
           ones like burrs that stick on your clothing), the
           wind-travelers, and so on. It was great fun. Then I
           showed the kids the orange seeds that were in our snack
           oranges, and we put them on the science table to dry.
           Before you knew it, all the children were saving the
           seeds from their breakfast grapefruits and oranges - and
           all the mothers wondered what was up, because suddenly
           they didn't dare to throw away the seeds. More and more
           seeds came to school to be dried on our science table and
           then planted, and I learned a few important lessons. The
           first was that I love science - at least studying about
           creation, and the second, that when I'm with children,
           they tend to love what I love. Years later, I realized we
           all loved it because God was so much present in our study
           of living, growing things.

           A Curriculum Based on Creation
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                A year ago, when we wanted to plan a curriculum with
           structure, substance and meaning that would last for
           several months, I remembered my love of science,
           remembered how the kids were fascinated with it, and
           remembered how much the essence of Heavenly Father had
           been in that study. The idea of developing a curriculum
           based on Creation was born. Why not study things in the
           order that God created them? After all, He created them
           for us - what joy it must give Him to have us study and
           learn about and appreciate them as His gifts to us. And
           it worked just that way!

                We decided to structure our Creation study just the
           way that Heavenly Father did, spreading it out over many
           weeks. We opened the study by talking about Heavenly
           Father and why He wanted to create us, and then why He
           created the wonderful universe that He did just for us.
           I've found, with chldren, that if I stimulate them just a
           little, their original minds pop into place quickly, and
           they start figuring out all the answers to all the
           questions that I was going to ask almost before I can ask
           them. After our introduction, the stage was set, and we
           decided to go straight into our study following the same
           pattern that Heavenly Father used when He unfolded
           Creation, day by day.


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           We Studied the Creation Around Us
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                We started with a study of air, water, heat, and
           light the first week, and we did lots of hands-on
           experiments. You remember the kind - tipping a glass in a
           tank to watch the air bubbles escape; blowing up a
           balloon and letting it go, with the escaping air
           propelling it; blowing bubbles with a straw; making
           Sunshine tea in a large jar; and making a cloud form - my
           very favorite. We all loved watching the cloud form. We
           made our cloud in a large jar with hot water in it, and
           by putting a large block of ice over the opening, you can
           actually watch the cloud begin to form inside the jar.
           The kids learned the oxygen/carbon dioxide cycle between
           humans and plants, and they learned the wonder of the
           give and take creation that God has made. As they
           explored the invisibility and reality of air, we talked
           about the invisibility and reality of Heavenly Father and
           His love. It fit.

                We studied the seasons and made a weather station.
           We studied growing things and planted seeds and did
           multiple experiments with them to show the effects of
           deprivation of sunlight, water, love, etc. We did
           "exotic" food-tasting, potato prints, and wrote poems
           about the Creation. We studied animals, and then man
           himself. We explored the five senses, and the digestive
           system, then began our grand finale - a study of man in
           relationship to man - in a family, a society, a nation
           and the world. We studied cultures and their similarities
           and differences. We delighted the parents when we told
           them not to make lunch for the day because we were
           cooking an Oriental, Spanish, French or all-American
           meal. And when I say "we", I mean the teachers and
           children together: choosing the menu, planning and
           cooking the meal, and cleaning up - all together. So what
           did we learn, and what do I want to impart to you, as
           parents?

                We learned, each and every one of us, that the
           children are capable of far more than we usually realize,
           and as much as we can expect of them - provided we, like
           Heavenly Father, did and explained things in an orderly
           and simple way. The real trick to finding out if you
           understand something is to try to explain it to a 4 or 5
           year old. If you can simplify your terms and concepts
           enough for them to understand - you've probably got a
           pretty clear grasp of it yourself.

                   .................................................
                                              Mim Kohn has worked in
                            children's education, and has supervised
                    several day care centers over the past 25 years.


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                                    Dad
                                   .....

                                                by Richard R. Radtke

                My Father was a large man, at least as I remember
           him. He has been gone now for over nine years. It seemed
           his arms were strong enough to lift almost anything. Of
           course I suppose that through the eyes of a ten year old
           everyone seemed large, but to me, my father was bigger
           than life. He loved to grow things. If I close my eyes I
           can still see him out there working away in his cherished
           garden, in the hot afternoon sun, the sweat running down
           his creased, wind-burned face.

                He grew up a farmer's son, north of Akron, Iowa, and
           worked the fields in his youth. When he was fifteen or
           sixteen, I can't really recall exactly, he went out on
           his own and worked as a cook for the construction crews,
           building the Alaskan highway. Shortly after that World
           War Two started and Dad enlisted in the Navy, spending
           his time aboard the submarine, "U.S.S. Balao", in the
           Pacific Theater of Operations. Maybe that is where his
           skin became so wind-blown, or perhaps it was the work in
           the fields of the family farm. I'm sure the muscles were
           at least started on their growth in the farm fields of
           Iowa. They reached their peak on the waves of the
           Pacific.

                I don't recall my Father ever talking much about his
           youth on the farm. It seemed as though it was something
           he was ashamed of. All we heard of the war were bits and
           pieces, usually told to us through eyes that were misty
           with tears, and a voice suddenly cracking at the end.
           There wasn't any glory in war for Dad. For him there were
           only long, lonely days of patrol, broken by moments of
           terror that lasted an eternity. There were friends that
           died, during and since, although I think everyone that
           has served in wars died just a little. For him the war
           was not glory and God, but the actions of a teenager
           praying to live through it and then get home.

                Dad didn't go to college, but he was much smarter
           than many that have. He had his own values and morals,
           something that so many people seem to lack these days. He
           believed in hard work and that stealing was wrong. He
           would give the shirt off of his back to help when he
           could, because as he used to say, "What goes around,
           comes around." He took the time to enjoy life -- simple
           things like fishing in the cool of the night, or just
           sitting on the porch and watching as the world rushed by.

                He begrudged no one their own good fortune -- indeed
           he was there to congratulate them. When someone felt the

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           hand of tragedy touch their life, again he was there to
           do what he could. His children and family came first,
           many times to his own detriment. He was a man, perhaps
           not any better than any before him, or after. More than
           anything, he was my Dad, and I will feel myself fulfilled
           if someday my own children will remember me with the same
           love that I still feel for him.

                As I said before, my father is gone now, much too
           soon, with many, many things unsaid, and dreams
           unfulfilled. For my part I have one regret that, above
           all others, I will bear for the rest of my life. I cannot
           remember ever telling my dad that I loved him. I am sure
           that I did, but I just don't remember the times or the
           places. Perhaps when we were fishing, or camping, or
           maybe just sitting in the kitchen, drinking coffee -- I
           really don't know. I know that he knew that I loved him,
           just as I knew he loved me, but he was of the generation
           where things were assumed and not said, i.e. "I am your
           dad, you are my son, therefore I love you."

                I suppose it is partially because of this sense of
           regret or loss that I take every opportunity I can with
           my boys to tell them that I love them and that I always
           will. Then I make them promise to never forget, and they
           promise. Over the few short years of their lives, it has
           become a standard of sorts, uttered in passing, or
           greeting, mainly at bed-time, but never losing its
           meaning through overuse. Granted, to you it may sound
           silly, or perhaps even a bit strange. But of this I am
           sure, no matter what happens, over time Willis and Ethan
           will know that above all else their father loves them,
           and always will...
                             .......................................
                             Richard R. Radtke is a dad and a writer


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                What Goes Into the Mouth ... and What Doesn't!
               ................................................

                                                    by Claire Bowles

                Guilt is a part of parenthood. We all feel it; we
           can't escape it; it pervades our emotions. There are only
           three or four occasions in our lives when we are given
           reason to believe that we are pretty good parents.

                1) Directly after the birth of our baby, but before
           the first attempt at breastfeeding; 2) when someone
           else's child does something really awful in public; and
           3) at the marriage ceremony of our first-born.

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                Any other time in our life there is the gentle, but
           constant whispering reminder or our inadequacy: guilt.

                Nothing causes guilt more readily, with more
           guilt-gusto than the eating habits of our young...even
           for non-Jewish parents. When they eat well, we feel a
           sense of well-being. We feel a momentary abatement of the
           feeling of guilt. If they don't eat, or eat the wrong
           things, we feel a jolt in our guilt register that remains
           there until the meal (or non-meal) is over.

                I know mine aren't the only kids who don't eat real
           food. I'm sure this is a common complaint among most
           parents, but I don't believe there are any kids worse
           than mine in this department. They seem to believe that
           if you can't dunk it in ketchup or you can't pour milk
           over it, then it can't be eaten.

                When they come to the table there are the expected
           reactions from the three older ones (the baby doesn't
           count since she is happy to play with any kind of food.)
           The nine year old gets angry. "You just don't WANT me to
           eat." I usually reply something like, "Yes, that's right.
           I spend my nights devising ways to torture you." My eight
           year old looks at the table and runs back upstairs to
           hide under his bed. My six year old has a very special
           way of telling me that what she is looking at is NOT a
           plate of french fries: remember when the Bride of
           Frankenstein saw the Frankenstein monster for the first
           time? That's about the same expression.

                I, in order to assuage my guilt, have become very
           sneaky in the kitchen. I am passing on to you some of my
           sneaky recipes which have proven consistently to fool my
           kids into eating veggies without their knowing it. These
           are secret recipes, not to be passed down to the next
           generation until they have kids of their own. Preferably
           not until they come to you in throes of guilt and
           frustration about the eating habits of THEIR young.

           Sneaky Shakes
           *************

                Use a juicer or the juicer connection of a food
           processor and juice four or five bright orange, rather
           small carrots. The bigger ones are not as sweet and could
           be noticed...which defeats the purpose. Discard the
           carrot pulp. Blend the carrot juice in with a quart of
           orange sherbet. Add between one half and one cup of milk.
           Try not to let the kids catch you juicing the carrots,
           but if you do, just tell them that's how you make the
           shakes orange. If you've gotten away with it easily and
           everyone loves it, add a carrot or two more next time.
           Makes about 4 mugs-full.


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           Sneaky Burgers
           **************

                Grate three or four smallish zucchini (peeled and
           very finely grated) into a mixing bowl. Add two or three
           pounds of ground meat. Smoosh it together with an egg (so
           it will stick together) and a handful or two of quick
           oats or bread crumbs. Make patties and fry in a few
           tablespoons of oil. If you want to make double sure that
           the veggies aren't detected, melt some cheese over the
           burgers. Use as much zucchini as you think you can get
           away with. Carrots also work but are a little more
           visible. Z-burgers actually make the burgers juicier. The
           grown-ups at our house like them better than plain
           hamburgers.

           Sneaky Cornbread
           ****************

                Add three or four finely grated carrots to your
           usual cornbread recipe. There is usually one recipe on
           the bag of cornmeal, if you need one. The only change is
           to add a little bit more baking powder (about a teaspoon
           more than called for.) If the kids catch you, tell them
           it's to make the cornbread yellow (if you haven't used
           that line already with the shakes.) If you don't like to
           lie to your kids, tell them the truth. They won't be able
           to taste the carrots and you'll add a little extra honey
           on their piece.

           Sneaky Cake
           ***********

                3 beaten eggs, 1 cup oil (you can use a little less
           if you're adding chocolate chips), 1 cup sugar, 2 finely
           grated zucchini, 2 tsps vanilla, 3 cups of flour (use a
           portion of whole wheat if desired) 1 tsp of salt (you can
           use less), 1 tsp of baking soda, 1 tsp of cinnamon, 1/2
           tsp baking powder (increase to 1 tsp if using whole wheat
           flour), 1/4 cup (more or less) chocolate chips. I use
           minichips because they are practically impossible to pick
           out and eat separately. Blueberries can be substituted
           for chocolate chips very successfully. Just coat them
           with a little flour before folding them in at the very
           last moment.

                Mix the first five ingredients together in a large
           mixing bowl. Sift the next five ingredients into the
           mixture and stir until blended well. Add chips if you're
           using them. Add a splash of milk if you need more
           moisture. Batter will be thick. Bake at 325 degrees for
           an hour or until springy. Cupcakes take less time.

                If you're using blueberries instead of chips, it's
           nice to sprinkle a little sugar over the cake before

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           baking. This recipe works just as well with carrots.
           Peeling the zucchini helps prevent veggie detection but
           this cake is so good that the kids won't even care that
           there are veggies in it...unless they are worse than even
           MY kids. In that case, don't let them catch you baking
           this cake.

                I hope these recipes help you in your fight to get
           good food into your kids. If I have done something to at
           least give you a guilt-free meal, I'm happy.

                         ...........................................
                                  Claire Bowles and her husband John
                          live in Oklahoma with their four children.
                           She is a freelance writer and a gardener.

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                             The Movie Mom's Guide
                       to Movies and Videos for Families
                      ...................................

                                                       by Nell Minow

                Reviews for parents of the best of current films and
           old movies available on video and cable, by Nell Minow,
           author, film critic, and mother. Reviews [on the Movie
           Mom web page, see address below] will be updated each
           week with recommendations and replies to questions about
           movies on special topics, suitability of particular
           movies for children, and movie trivia -- try to stump me!
           I'd also love your suggestions for a new book on movies
           for families. The best kids' comments I receive will be
           published.

           RECOMMENDED
           ***********

           The Hunchback of Notre Dame
           ...........................

                An uncomfortable mixture of a story of cruelty,
           obsession, and bigotry with stunning animation and some
           kid-friendly jokes makes this latest Disney release for
           older kids only. Don't let the lunchboxes and fast food
           trinkets fool you -- even with a sort of happy ending
           tacked on (Quasimodo doesn't die, but he doesn't get the
           girl, either) this is a very dark and complex story, and
           without much interest or appeal for younger kids.

                Judge Frollo is about to kill a misshapen baby when
           he is stopped by a priest. He raises the baby, Quasimodo,
           in the Notre Dame cathedral, telling him he must never

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           leave, and that people outside are evil. When Quasimodo
           (voice of Tom Hulce of "Amadeus") does leave, to enjoy
           the annual "Festival of Fools," he is taunted by the
           crowd. Only Esmerelda, the gypsy girl (voice of Demi
           Moore), is kind to him.

                Frollo plans to destroy all the gypsies. His
           attraction to Esmerelda makes him all the more committed
           to getting rid of her. Quasimodo helps her escape, and
           falls in love with her. Phoebus (voice of Kevin Kline),
           the captain who reports to Frollo, refuses to kill the
           citizens, and Frollo orders him killed, too. Phoebus and
           Quasimodo help save the day, Phoebus and Esmerelda fall
           in love, and Quasimodo is welcomed into the outside
           world.

                The movie can provide an opportunity for a
           discussion of prejudice. Quasimodo and Esmerelda sing
           about what it feels like to be an outcast, and the scene
           where he is sarcastically crowned king at the Festival of
           Fools is a painful one. But I am not sure it is much
           better when his gargoyle friends sing a song to cheer him
           up, letting him believe he may have a chance with
           Esmerelda. And the conclusion seems to say to us that
           those who are different to look at really can't expect as
           much as those who look like handsome Phoebus. For older
           kids, the movie can also lead to a discussion about
           Frollo's view of the world that people are basically
           evil, versus Esmerelda and Quasimodo, who think that
           people are basically good, and what makes people so
           threatened by those who are different.

           NOT RECOMMENDED
           ***************

           The Nutty Professor
           ...................

                Let the kids watch a video of the Jerry Lewis
           classic, but don't take them to this Eddie Murphy update.
           It's a shame, because Murphy is talented and funny, but
           the movie is much too raunchy for kids. I have had more
           outraged emails on this than every movie I have reviewed
           in the last year.

           Cable Guy
           .........

                One of the "highlights" of this film is a
           porno-password game. The "Ace Ventura" movies had
           inappropriate material but Ace was an endearing
           character. Here Jim Carrey's title character is a dark
           and twisted guy bent on destroying the life of a customer
           -- sort of like a cross between "The Cat in the Hat" and
           Glenn Close in "Fatal Attraction."

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           NEW ON VIDEO / HIGHLY RECOMMENDED
           *********************************

           Kids for Character
           ..................

                Tom Selleck and many of preschoolers' favorite TV
           figures like Barney, Miss Frizzle of the Magic Schoolbus,
           the Puzzle Place kids and Sheri Lewis explain concepts
           like trustworthiness, fairness, caring, and citizenship
           in this entertaining and enlightening video. It comes
           with a workbook to help parents reinforce the ideas, and
           serves as a starting point for discussions of values.

           The Wrong Trousers - and - A Fine Day Out
           .........................................

                Both by Oscar-winner Nick Parks. These are
           claymation masterpieces, thrilling, witty, and enormous
           fun. Both feature dim inventor Wallace and his silent but
           wise dog, Gromit. In "A Fine Day Out," Wallace decides
           that he fancies some cheese, so he builds a rocket ship
           to the moon. The cheese is delightful, but there is a
           slight problem when they meet up with a robot with his
           own ideas. In "The Wrong Trousers," one of Wallace's
           inventions, mechanical trousers designed for walking
           Gromit, are rewired by a wicked penguin who turns out to
           be a master thief. Kids may need a moment to get used to
           Wallace's English accent, but all family members will
           enjoy the fun.
                     ...............................................
                             The Movie Mom's Guide is on the web at:
                     http://pages.prodigy.com/moviemom/moviemom.html
                            "Movie Mom" is a trademark of Nell Minow

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                              - HeartQuestions -
                         Questions & Reflections about
                      Marriage, Parenting & Family Issues
                     -------------------------------------
             Communication: The Conduit for True Love in Marriage
            ......................................................

                                                   by Peter F. Brown

                When a husband and wife pledge themselves in
           marriage, isn't it true that both are yearning for a long
           and happy relationship of true love together? Their
           honeymoon isn't over yet, and they both entertain a
           natural hope that their love will continue and grow.

                After their honeymoon, couples may feel like they
           both have been thrown into a gigantic washing machine,

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           bumping and jabbing against each other. They discover
           that they're often quite different, with different
           expectations about marriage, and life in general. Only
           their tenuous love for each other holds them together.

                How can a couple's initial love for each other
           strengthen until they love and understand each other in
           such a comprehensive way that they become as inseparable
           as two halves of a round rubber ball? The two halves of a
           round rubber ball are more than "knit" together --
           they're "melded" into one unit, with the particles of
           rubber bonded into one cohesive whole. This doesn't mean
           that the individuality of the husband and wife is lost.
           Indeed, both must become emotionally strong, mature
           individuals in order to love each other with unselfish
           and responsible love.

                Newly married couples usually aren't at that stage
           of unity. Even more to the point, do they want to be, or
           have they thought about reaching that level of harmony
           with each other? The goal of two hearts unbreakably
           unified into one is a goal that needs to be clearly
           established when the marriage is still young and the
           couple's wounds are few. When a husband and wife are head
           over heels in love with each other, they want to be
           together all the time. This is normal, for why would we
           want to separate from someone if we really love them?
           Unfortunately, many young couples don't think about this
           particular goal. Even more unfortunately, the means to
           reach this goal are often not examined until difficulties
           arise. The time to start creating a deeper relationship
           of true love is long before the couple has reached a
           crisis.

                Simply stated, the ongoing exchange of true
           unselfish love between the husband and wife will multiply
           their feelings of true love for each other until they
           really do feel that they share one mind and one heart.
           The key phrase, from the point of view of mechanics, is
           "ongoing exchange". One might compare this exchange to an
           active "conduit", much like an electrical line, that
           provides a pathway for the give and take of love. If the
           couple allows their exchange of true love to wither away,
           their relationship will ultimately become cold and
           sterile, simply because love requires this dynamic
           exchange and acknowledgment.

                How can a husband and wife effectively exchange true
           love? Although some husbands try to get away with being
           the strong silent type, I believe that the innermost
           selves of the husband and wife need to meet and unite in
           order to build an honest and true relationship. What are
           the elements of a couple's "innermost selves"? We all
           think, we feel, we have desires -- we all yearn for love.
           Yet how many husbands and wives delve into each other's

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           thoughts and feelings and desires? How many have
           business-like relationships that never really go that
           deep? How many have secrets that they don't share with
           each other? How many feel free to tell their spouse about
           the most sensitive areas of their heart?

                Building a relationship of true love with our
           husband or wife should go beyond the varied expressions
           of love such as smiles or flowers, or words like "I love
           you." These are all valuable and inspiring. But, after
           giving a gift to our spouse, can we then say that we know
           his or her heart, or thoughts, or feelings? Not
           necessarily. We can communicate our thoughts and feelings
           through actions or facial expressions -- but ultimately,
           as rational people who think about many abstract concepts
           such as eternal love and invisible hopes and dreams, we
           need to express our hearts through words. We need to
           talk. Talking, not surprisingly, doesn't happen
           automatically. Some couples say that they have no time to
           talk with each other. It's true that schedules may be
           overloaded, but how much is a marriage of true love
           worth? Couples can communicate anywhere, whether it be at
           home, or in the car, or with the children playing in the
           next room.

                My wife and I talk every day, about every
           conceivable thing. Nothing is off limits -- there are no
           secrets between us. We know each other's problems and
           weak points. We also know each other's hopes and dreams,
           down to every nuance and tender feeling. We talk
           sometimes for hours, late into the night. We talk about
           our work, our schedules, our daily tasks. But most of
           all, we talk about heart and feelings and true love
           itself. We've bared our hearts to each other entirely.

                This required a great deal of trust, which took a
           number of years to develop. How many times have you
           shared your innermost heart with a friend and had it
           trampled upon? It's happened to me, and it's very
           unpleasant. My wife has never done that, for which I am
           profoundly grateful. Kim is my best friend, beyond any
           other friend that I have -- and I have many friends whom
           I like very, very much. I know that my heart is safe with
           Kim. My trust in her love is limitless.

                I also know that Kim and I have many faults, and our
           love is still very far below the standard of true
           unselfish love. Therefore, we still have problems. I hurt
           her feelings, and she hurts mine -- which unfortunately
           leads to "incidents", as we euphemistically call them.
           These incidents of anger and hurt sometimes last two or
           three hours, although they're usually shorter. Overcoming
           them always requires mutual apologies and heartfelt
           repentance toward each other. We're committed to each


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           other forever, and are equally committed to the view that
           when it comes to an argument, "true love is the boss."

                Through it all, we've begun to realize more and more
           that ongoing communication -- when we feel warm and
           harmonious toward each other -- is the key to truly
           understanding each other. I want to know every aspect of
           Kim's thoughts and feelings and hopes and dreams. I want
           her to know mine, as well. I believe that in the future
           we really will become like two halves of a round rubber
           ball, virtually telepathic in our understanding of each
           other's hearts and minds.

                Our culture hasn't lent itself very well to this
           type of communication. Communication is more than the
           external exchange of words. We can work with someone for
           many years, and never really know what they think or feel
           when it comes to the all-important topic of true love.
           Husbands are often very embarrassed by this topic, and
           may not know how to start communicating about their
           innermost hearts. Wives have a chance here to reach deep
           down into their husband's hearts and minds and help
           create an environment where communicating about internal
           things is very natural and very comfortable. Amidst an
           atmosphere of mutual kindness, respect, and plain good
           manners, trust can build, and the couple's hearts can
           open to each other in new ways.

                It's a process that will happen gradually, based
           upon the couple's efforts to communicate constantly, on a
           daily basis, about everything. Heart and love will
           naturally fit in, after the ice has been broken. The
           vital ingredient is that the couple's communication
           should cover every aspect of their lives. I am endlessly
           teased by some of my friends because I call Kim at least
           twice a day when I am traveling. But I would have it no
           other way, for calling her, and sharing our thoughts and
           hearts together, is the most natural thing for me to do.
           I do it because I like her, I love her, and I truly enjoy
           her company. I want to talk with her, because the more I
           talk and communicate with her, the more I love her. And
           love, as I tell our four children, makes everyone
           involved very, very happy.

            ........................................................
                           Peter F. Brown is the author of the book,
                           "Striving for Parental Love" and lives in
                      Virginia Beach, VA with his wife Kim and their
                   four children, Tymon, Thea Grace, Ranin and Tadin

                   HeartQuestions is published as a weekly column on
                                   The HeartThread Resource Page at:
                                            "http://futurerealm.com"
                                    Send your questions by email to:
                                        "peterbrown@futurerealm.com"

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                             A Legacy of Love
                            ..................

                                                 by Kim Korman Brown

                One night when I was seventeen, my mother came up
           the stairs to my room after she had watched the movie, "I
           Remember Mama", on TV. She cried and put her arms around
           me and said, "I hope you remember me, Kim."

                "Of course I'll remember you. I love you. You're my
           mom," I said, as I returned her embrace. I was a little
           shocked, but now, from the vantage point of being over
           forty, I understand her. She was in her early fifties at
           the time, and I think she was looking into the precipice
           of her own mortality. She looked so sad as she said,
           "Your father and I only have about fifteen years left." I
           think it was the first time she ever made herself totally
           vulnerable in front of me. She died of cancer about ten
           years after that, at the age of 61. There are no words to
           describe how much I miss her.

                One of the places where the rubber hits the road, so
           to speak, when one's parents are deceased, is not being
           able to share one's children with them. There are so many
           anecdotes I want to tell my mom and dad that would make
           them laugh or cry. Other times I would love to know what
           their thoughts and experiences were in different
           situations.

                When we grow up, we can finally appreciate what
           difficulties our parents suffered in raising us. Life
           turns full circle. Ideally by then, parents and children
           should be able to relate on the same level. When I think
           about my parents now, it seems that most of the painful
           memories tend to settle on the bottom like silt in a
           pond. The happy memories outshine everything else.

                I am fortunate enough to have been raised in a home
           with a lot of affection and laughter. We were very
           expressive both in a positive and negative sense. My dad
           was a navy veteran with a sailor's vocabulary. He salted
           the atmosphere of our home whenever the short fuse of his
           temper was lit, which happened almost every day. When I
           think of him now, I try to remember that his mother died
           when he was about five years old, and he was raised by
           grandparents who weren't very thrilled to have him. His
           primary childhood memory was being served the turkey neck
           on Thanksgiving.

                He was rather inarticulate, like many men, and found
           it difficult to discuss his feelings with anyone but my
           mother. But he was always there, punctual, dependable,
           and funny. We were very close when I was little. He read

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           to me and held me on his lap and took me with him places.
           When I became a teenager we didn't relate well anymore. I
           needed to communicate about the details of life more, and
           he was limited in his ability to respond.

                My mom was a woman without enemies. She had a sunny,
           sympathetic nature and took a compassionate view of
           things. She was always saying, "You love your friends in
           spite of their faults," and "Maybe the reason that that
           person is crabby is because they had a rotten life and it
           colors their viewpoint about everything," and "It's not
           worth it to fight. Kill 'em with kindness." My mom was
           the kind of mother that other kids liked. I have numerous
           memories of sitting at the kitchen table with my friends
           and my mom, talking about life. She made friends
           everywhere she went and corresponded with all of them
           whenever we moved. She choked the post office at
           Christmas time with the amount of cards she sent
           (complete with personal notes!). She also had a beautiful
           smile.

                We lived in the country in upstate NY when I was a
           child. My parents were big nature lovers -- they
           subscribed to all the conservation magazines and watched
           nature shows on TV. They knew the names of all the birds
           that fed at our numerous feeders and birdbaths. "Look
           Fen, it's a Downy Woodpecker!" "Look Iris, it's an
           Evening Grosbeak!" We took many hikes in the woods and I
           was emphatically taught to "Shut up when you're walking
           in the woods and you might see something!"

                Going on vacation to Cape Cod was probably the best
           fun with my parents. Something about the texture of
           vacation was good for them and imbued them with good
           humor. Real blueberry pancakes on a picnic table under
           the pine cones, sand under our bare toes, the slap of
           water against the boats and docks, all seemed to
           irradicate their stress. We met with the same family
           every summer. Ed was my dad's childhood buddy from
           "Hungry Hill", the Irish section of Springfield
           Massachusetts. His wife, Ruth, was a freelance writer and
           they had a son, Ned, who was four years older than me.

                Everybody was a comedian in their own right, so
           there was a lot of chuckling and needling and friendly
           teasing. My dad and Ed both worked for insurance
           companies. They would go fishing and talk about the fish
           or about insurance, and were generally boring to listen
           to. My mother caught up on all the latest news with Ruth,
           and they invited me to listen in. At home Ruth did yoga
           in her spare time, or went to her friend Olive's antique
           shop where they pushed around a Ouija board. Ruth told
           kooky anecdotes, reminisced with my mom, and shared a
           hilarious running commentary on her relatives.


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                We played cards, or listened to the bullfrogs in the
           evening, or drove to the ocean which was a short trip
           from the small lake resort. The time was cozy and sweet
           with no sense of worry or agitation.

                Everyone has memories of their childhood -- some are
           beautiful and some are sad. My family was very emotional,
           and my parents yelled at me a lot when I was growing up.
           When I transformed into an archetypal,
           smart-aleck-brand-teenager, I mocked my parents when they
           yelled at me and then they slapped me silly. Those
           memories are painful. Despite their mistakes I know they
           tried to love me and tried to do the right thing. I am
           certain of that, because all I feel when I think of them
           now, is how much I miss them.

                My older brother called me one New Year's Eve a
           couple of years ago. I could tell that his tonsils were
           well-oiled, as my father used to say, because his speech
           was slurry and he was very sentimental. "You remember
           that birthday party when I was 10 years old, and you were
           all singing Happy Birthday to me? I remember feeling so
           happy and all that love washing over me -- you remember
           that? You remember that?" (I was 3 at the time, so I
           didn't really remember.) He got choked up and the
           conversation moved on, but I thought about it later.

                My brother and my father didn't get along. He left
           home and joined the army when he was 18 (I was 11 then),
           and then he only saw my parents twice after that before
           they died. There was a lot of unresolved pain on both
           sides. After that conversation, I realized that my
           brother's good memories were rising to the surface of his
           heart. The misunderstanding and the James Dean "Rebel
           Without a Cause" debris was subsiding. He wanted to
           remember the love. The rest of it didn't matter anymore.

                I love the fact that God gave humanity this quality.
           Once we forgive the past and let go of the pain, the
           "real stuff" distills and rises to the top. Sometimes
           I've heard old people speak about their childhood. They
           remember the way their mother looked making dinner, and
           what the whole family was like as they sat down for a
           meal. They might be the last remaining member of their
           family, but the essence of those moments remain,
           suspended in time. A soldier dying on a battlefield calls
           out for his mother, his inmost-self gravitating to the
           one who loved him the most.

                Peter and I spend hours talking about how to raise
           our children. The thing we tell them more than anything,
           that applies to almost every situation, is what Peter
           calls the "rule of heart." "Never make anyone sad, and
           always make other people happy. Treat people better than
           you want to be treated." It's so basic, but it says it

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           all. I want my children to grow up with warm hearts
           toward others, and the ability to laugh in the face of
           gloom.

                The challenge parents face is that there are a
           multitude of mistakes we can make while parenting, and
           they are hard to foresee until you're in the saddle. I
           feel like I'm winging it a lot of the time, but I believe
           that prayer and the determination to never stop trying
           are vital components for success.

                Family closeness also requires family fun. Belly
           laughs together, smiling into the eyes of our children --
           and our children smiling back at us, all build a sense of
           closeness. We can love our children, but how great it is
           if we like them too! Beyond loving them, do we respect
           them and the gifts they bring to the mix? I just read an
           interview with Goldie Hawn in a women's magazine. One of
           her children said they laughed more and had more fun at
           home than anywhere else. Creating a home filled with
           laughter and joy is a wonderful legacy to pass on to our
           children. Creating that legacy requires more than a dose
           of humor -- naturally!

                            ........................................
                             Kim Korman Brown is a writer and a Mom,
                                  living in Virginia Beach, Virginia





























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